And then there were 2 :)

[Daisy2011]

Good morning lovely , well done you getting though the loop thing, an injection in the cervix sounds very painful and then two more after that!! They say that its very very sucessful and so heres to great news shortly.

Im glad you went out and had a lovely time, im sad to see you worn down by OHs moods, great that you got ot the bottom of why Elexi was so mardy. Happy birthday to her for this week the times just flown by.
hope you recover from the hangover and have a lovely little celebration for her.
xx Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Thanks Daisy
I cant believe how quickly a year has passed either. The birthday preparations are well and truly under way anyway, balloons ordered, cake ingredients and decorations bought and practice run on the sponge done (tasted divine too even if i do say so myself) so yes, were nearly organised! Supermarket today for the party food, just gonna get Elexis a small present for now as we are utterly skint, OHs mum is paying for the party food and my friend has paid for the cake stuff bless em, but then when we get paid a week on saturday were gonna get her a smart trike i think

Little legs has been sleeping quite well lately not sleeping through but only waking a couple of times, that'll do me

She now says doggy as well - which comes out as "dodda" for dummy we have "nerner" haha were getting there! She walks every where now, loves dancing, loves talking and loves kicking the football around the room!

Anyway, im going to chill for a bit, Elise has been sick everywhere this morning so shes not at school for the rest of the week poor kiddo xx

 

[deedee84]

What a weekend!!!!!

So Friday it was Elexis's 1st birthday eeek!!! She wasnt overly interested in opening presents, we helped her with the first one and she was happy with that, didnt want to entertain anything else Anyway, at 11:30am i went down to my friends to help make Elexis's birthday cake, was a bit gutted as we were supposed to be making a giant cupcake but her friend forgot to bring her the mould for it so we ended up with a bog standard victoria sponge style cake...anyway because my friend wanted to make the cake enormous it took forever to cook and by 4pm it still wasnt ready and i couldnt stay out any longer after all it was my babies birthday and id already been away for too long so i left her to finish it off!! Meanwhile while all this was going on i was speaking to OH via fb telling him how ive been feeling lately with him not helping and not giving a damn about me (its the only way i can get my point across without him interrupting me and making it into an arguement) ended up with him saying he was leaving, that he is just a burden on us all and that he was going to set me free and move somewhere far away from me and his family, so after lots of tears and talking and his parents coming up and giving him what for he gave his head a shake and agree'd to see the doc again monday to push his app forward and to try start thinking positively from now on...so far so good

Right, so onto Saturday, we did Elexis a little tea party, was actually quite gutted, there were supposed to be 13 kids inc mine...we ended up with 7 as 2 of my friends didnt turn up for various reasons, anyway in a way i was glad as it was hectic enough, Elexis didnt cry at everyone...BONUS!! although she wouldnt let me put her down at the start, she came around towards the end though. Was a lovely little gathering with not much food left to spare (apart from the giant birthday cake and cupcakes to go with it...i'll have some of that today yummy ha) and it seemed everyone had a good time. Anyway, heres a few photos from over the weekend

At her tea party




While everyone was singing "happy birthday"


Funny walk into the kitchen on her birthday


Opening presents


xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

Aw sweet photos, its lovely to have birthday memories, sounds like sat was much happier than friday oh boy you and OH have had some very difficult times. He has been in this state for a long time now and I hope that he can get more help and get better and going back to the doctors is a good step towards that. Its a rollercoaster for you all.

Hope that today is a chilled out and happy day, and no Elise puke to mop up, how are things going with you and her have you been able to build some happier mum and daughter moments?
happy week
love Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Yes saturday was a much better day thankfully!

As for OH were just waiting on his psychologist appointment, they did say theres a waiting list and it would be 8 weeks before he heard anything, i think its been about 5, dont know whether theres any point going back to the docs to force a quicker app or not, dont know if they will,i guess its worth a shot!

Not had any Elise puke to mop but did have Elexis puke last night, she woke around 1am crying, i just thought it was the usual nightly awakening but nope, she had a pool of sick by the side of her head, she looked so sleepy still though so i slid the bottom sheet off swapped her comfort blanket and got her back off to sleep with a drink of water and shes been asleep since so shes obv not well as she never sleeps this well.

Regarding Elise its hit and miss, some days shes an absolute angel other days she treats me like poo and speaks to me like im nothing, OH has been telling her off more for it lately and helping to chastise her so hopefully him taking a more fatherly role so to speak may get her back on track, i think because im the one that does everything with them and tells Elise off for doing naughty things maybe thats why she is how she is with me! She had some daddy bonding time yesterday anyway, he took her with him to watch wakefield trinity play rugby, she loved it and so he said he will start taking her a lot more

Anyway im heading out for coffee with my friend this morning, ooh and not forget cake (left over birthday cake yummy) Gonna talk about our new ventures, been talked into doing Ann summers parties i guess i can have a go for nothing, it might be fun if we both do it

happy week to you too Daisy

xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

Ooh ann summers parties are fun, but you do get to hear things about your freinds that sometimes you wish you hadent!!
how has your week been so far?
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

haha yeah i reckon your right *cringes*

My week so far has been hit and miss, what with Elexis starting with the sickness bug, we had the health visitor out Wednesday i think it was for a weight review, didnt think we could get weight let alone height but Elexis was super good, had a tiny whinge on the scales but we managed to get her weight, shes lost more weight so shes now 23lb 2oz and on the 91st centile and her height is 75cm and on the 75th centile so shes all in proportion, HV said said shes tall which i already knew and then she played peek-a-boo with Elexis and actually got a smile so that day was a good one,but then i caught the dreaded sickness bug, felt queasy wednesday, Thursday the shits hit me and i felt just awful and today i just feel a tad queasy again...but life goes on,
We have also started trying to get Elexis into a proper routine now in hope we can accomplish these sleepless nights, so for the past 3 nights we have done bath at 6:30pm, straight into my room to get dried and jammies on, then into her room for a story, bottle of milk on mummies knee and then put down in the cot whether it be awake or asleep, the first night we had tears, 2nd night we had less and she actually found her bottle herself that night and helped herself to a drink before finding her dummy and getting her head down and last night she hardly cried just whinged a little before helping herself to a drink and falling asleep although she woke a fair few times last night but was only given water...i WILL conquer this sleep lark haha!!

Anyway time to get my little big girl ready for school, feel tight, her school shoes broke Tuesday and i havent had the money to go get her any more yet so she has to go in sparkly silver hello kitty pumps today she doesnt mind bless!

xxx

 

[deedee84]

Oh dear...what a few days weve had! Both me and Elexis have had the sickness bug since Tuesday, i'm still not over it completely and to top it off ive started with a cold
We had a nice surprise the other morning, went to get Elexis up, picked her up and noticed her sleeping bag was wet, just thought her nappy had leaked wee through the night so took the sleeping bag off her and her white babygrow was brown so i took that off and she was covered in poo all the way up to her neck, i yelled at OH to run the bath and grab me a nappy from downstairs then dunked the poor sleepy babba in the bath, needless to say she was not impressed! Took some bloody scrubbing as well, it was vile...worst poo explosion to date

Missus slept atrocious last night, first time since the new routine, she was waking every hour or so, didnt help that OH came to bed at 1:30am and started yelling at me because he couldnt find the TV remote, we have 2 remotes but dad came for the old sky box yesterday as his is old and on its way out so i said he could have our HD box, got him the remote knowing we had both in our room but now the spare has gone awol and i got a right bollocking for handing over the remote to dad without finding the other, tbh i am extremely annoyed and could punch OH, how dare he come carrying on, waking me up, being all loud and noisy while the kids are in bed all for a bloody remote! Gonna give him what for when he rears his ugly head this morning!!!!!!!

Little legs has her jabs next week too, Monday! poor mite! im sending OH to be the bad guy anyway, i'll give mummy cuddles and hand her my phone that she adores so much when she comes out lol! Then on the Tuesday its tattoo day tad scared tbh, was designing my own tattoo last night, think ive come up with a nice one that im happy with, was a bit worried as its only a week away and i had no idea what i wanted doing, some of the ideas i got i didnt fall in love with which scared me as this will be for life and if i dont like it im stuck with it so im pleased ive designed my own and actually like it I shall indeed post pics when the tattoo has calmed a little exciting stuffs!

xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

Sorry youve been ill lately , thats horrible and doesnt help with the explosive poo situation either !!

OOH a new tatoo how exciting!
cant belive he had a paddy about the remote control, dont know why you put up with it.

Heres to a relaxing and happy weekend.
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Thanks Daisy, just trying to get rid of this cold now and then maybe i can enjoy this lovely warm weather more!

And yes, tattoo day is looming, getting a little scared now haha! And yes im bloody stupid for putting up with OHs outbursts, i think i just pass it off and blame it on his mental state and then tell myself things will be different when he starts seeing his psychologist! We will see! I do realise things need to change between us...or more so on his side!

Elexis slept lovely for me last night, good job too, because i spent from 9am thursday until 5am friday at the hospital watching my niece being born, was an amazing time even if things went hectic and scary for a while. baby had to be delivered by forceps as her heart rate kept dipping and not coming back up every time jade pushed, and then after the birth jades placenta wouldnt come away, they left her with the placenta in for a good hour as they told her they would have to take her to theater and then suddenly she felt dizzy and her ears were ringing so my brother told a midwife then all hell broke loose, they dropped the bed flat and started rushing about before wheeling her off to theater, apparently her placenta had started coming away and she had had massive blood loss internally which had made her bp plummet, it was 64 over 45 so very very low! Luckily her and baby are doing well, shes hoping they can come home today, anyway...so i didnt get to sleep while dinner time friday over 24hours later and then only had 2 and a half hours sleep as i seemed to be wide awake after that, so needless to say last night i was zonked come 10:30, and luckily Elexis slept 7 while 11:30, then 11:30 while 4:30 and then from 4:30 until 8 so i managed to catch up on some well needed sleep

Dont know what the plan is for today, hopefully find something to do that doesnt involve money as we dont have any until wednesday ha!

xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

OOH what a suprise, glad that things worked out and that she had some good and fast care. and you are an aunty!

Hope that youve had a relaxing day and cought up on some sleep!
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Thanks Daisy, yes an aunty at last and a proud one a that!

I had my first ever tattoo done yesterday and im ashamed to say i have caught the tattoo bug and want another haha!!

This heat has been awful for my poor babba too, it was 28 degrees in her room last night, im surprised she slept although tbh she did wake a few times for a drink of water which i was glad of, ive just been putting her down in a nappy nothing else! glad its a little cooler today!

xx

 

[Daisy2011]

ooh wheres th photo of new tatoo!!
hope you are having a good week
xx Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Oh yeah i forgot about putting a picture up, just need the 'e' on the end of Elises name making more prominent but im there Thursday for my 2nd tattoo lol so i'll get him to do it then!



So yeah having another one Thursday, just a small one on my wrist

Elexis had her jabs Wednesday too, and the poor mite is now suffering a high temperature and is covered in spots, stupid MMR!!! She seems ok in herself and slept relatively well last night apart from when it got to half 3, she just wouldnt settle back down i think it was 4:45am when she finally gave in and then slept until 8:30!

Also decided to have go at doing Ann summers a few week back, and now that ive got my kit i'm really thinking about jacking it in, it all seems so complex, they kinda just chucked a training manual at me and that was that, not only that, before i even start earning for my first party i need to buy a clothing rail, raffle book and prizes, paper pens a calculator, get transport to the party, pay £10 delivery for the goods and also attend meetings every month in the next town to which i would have to pay taxis there as well as get raffle and buy drinks, i struggle to bloody feed myself as it is without all these expenditures before i have even started, just seems like too much esp when i have a mentally ill OH and a baby!

So yeah...my week in nutshell...oh also got a cold still grr, it just will NOT sod off!!!!

xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

lovely tatoo with your girls names , what are you having tommorow? Ann summers seems like a lot of outlay at first ouch.

How was you weekend, hope you all had some relaxing sunny days. and happy week ahead.
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

The other tattoo i'm having is a kinda swirly symbol meaning 'new beginnings' seems apt as i got my LLETZ results back which showed no residual CIN (and naughty me for forgetting to mention it in my journal lol) so i just have to go for a smear in 6 months now and plus with me becoming a tattoo fan, its kinda a new me too! Actually even thought of becoming a tattoo artist, ive always been very creative and artistic, did graphic design at college but never got a job doing that as its just too complicated to get into to, then it dawned on me that tattooists are just skin artists, deffo going to look into it

The weekend has been really nice, we had a BBQ at the brothers Friday evening, Saturday we spent all day indoors as missus had a high temp and it was much cooler for her inside and yesterday we were back at the brothers for more BBQ and got the pool out for the girls, well cant really say its a pool, its for ages 1-3 and so its very very shallow but they loved it none the less! Today is parents evening for elise, im sure they will tell me she is awesome and very well behaved, which is more than can be said for her behaviour at home lol, as long as shes doing well at school though thats the main thing!

Elexis slept relatively well again last night, not sure whether to get her to the docs, she had a high temp and came out in a measles looking rash after 3 days which is normal, but i checked on her half hour ago and her cheeks have huge red spots underneath the skin all over them making her look flushed, shes had the since the original spots but they have progressively got worse, so i'm beginning to wonder if it is jab related or not! May just see what she looks like when shes up and alert.

Well, gonna go enjoy my coffee in peace seen as though everyones still in bed...makes a lovely change, and now ive said that they will all wake up haha!

Heres to another sunny week

xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

WWWWWWHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
That is GREAT news , you must be so relieved about that , its really rumbled on for so long. hooray its over and done!!Im so glad for you

The tatooartist thing would be wonderful what a fab idea, there are so many books around about tatoo art there are even some in our local library. You could easy try with henna to practice to. Go for it.
I think that there are lots of subsidized beauty type courses at local colleges that if you are on an income based benefit then they are like £10 or something.

Go for it.

I'd call the nhs line to talk her sysmptoms over with them, but if you think its more than her being hot then just take her in. Its not worth worrying over just do it.

Hope she gets better soon and you are researching tatoo artistry right now on the internet!!
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Yes must say i was mightily relieved, i darent open the envelope at first, its such a massive weight off of my mind!

And yeah ive been researching lots on the tattooist idea, even e-mailed a local tattooist to see how you go about it, not had a reply as yet, if ive not heard anything by Thursday i'll ask my tattooist while im there! I suppose when i get paid i better start making up a portfolio of drawings and such as apparently its needed
Deffo gonna look up at college to see if there are any courses for it, tried looking online for local courses only found one in Sheffield, 1 day course for £125 which i guess isnt bad...if i had the money lol!

Right my little miss has just woken so i'm gonna go check that rash out...on a good note she only woke at about 10:30pm last night (i was still awake) and then didnt wake until 4:15am where she stood up with her blanket and expected to get up...i dont think so haha!

xxx

 

[Daisy2011]

Hi Lovely how are you and the girls?
Hope youve had some lovely sunny days together doing fun stuff.
Do the college not do reduced fees,
Last year I was allowed to do three courses at reduced fees becuase I was on income based benefits. Definately ask them about it becuase it would make such a difference.
Hope all is well
x Daisy

 

[deedee84]

Hey Daisy, i did update the other day but it went to pot and froze and i lost everything i had wrote and couldnt be bothered to wrote it again haha!

When i went and had my second tattoo done Thursday i asked him how i go about getting into the business, he said the only way to go is to ask around and get an apprenticeship with a tattooist, this is for 5 years, he said he may think of taking an apprentice on next year and to ask back then so its up in the old memory bank

We have been enjoying the sun lots too, had a water fight the other day as it was so warm, i just couldnt cool down!
Elexis has been sleeping much better lately, i only seem to get up to her 2-3 times a night, shes finally figured that when she wakes she has a drink in bed with her and so the only time i need to go in is when she cant find her dummy

We got new sofas last week OH's sister had only had hers 3 months to make do while her new one was being custom made so oh's mum has paid her £150 for it, its a black thick cord one with scatter cushions, a 2 and 3 seater, looks lovely, problem being its quite low and my darling daughter has figured that she can climb onto it haha!! Thing is shes a tad useless at getting back off of it and tends to try getting down head first lol!!

Anyway, i better scoot, Elise is now up and i need to run to the shop for bread and milk...oh joy!! Thats all thanks to OH forgetting to go last night!!

xxx