oliviastevens
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Hello
I've just found out I'm 6 weeks along with my first and I've never felt so alone.
A brief history: I am 19. My parents divorced when I was 2 and the last time I saw my Dad was when I was 14, when he said he was remarrying. I've not talked to him since as I don't like the woman he has married. My Mum, who has mobility issues, lives 5 hours away, so it's not that easy to go and visit her (I don't drive) and I'm an only child.
I was with my boyfriend on and off for a few years, as he liked to drink and the relationship was volatile (he is 22). He is now with a new girlfriend (who he was cheating on me with). I knew that he didn't want kids and we slept together, using protection so I wouldn't get pregnant. I then noticed a few days later that there was split in the condom afterwards which he didn't know about. I didn't take the morning after pill, as I thought I would be OK, but then I didn't have my period, so took a test.
I feel so alone as I'm not on good speaking terms with my ex. We work in the same building, so I still see him around, which makes me physically sick. Once I begin to show he will put 2 and 2 together very quickly (I've not been with anyone else). I am petrified that he will push me into having an abortion, which I don't want.
This baby wasn't exactly planned, but I know that I'm going to love it no matter what life throws at me, or how hard its going to be. I also know I have to be strong for the baby, but at the moment I just feel so weak and low.
I've just found out I'm 6 weeks along with my first and I've never felt so alone.
A brief history: I am 19. My parents divorced when I was 2 and the last time I saw my Dad was when I was 14, when he said he was remarrying. I've not talked to him since as I don't like the woman he has married. My Mum, who has mobility issues, lives 5 hours away, so it's not that easy to go and visit her (I don't drive) and I'm an only child.
I was with my boyfriend on and off for a few years, as he liked to drink and the relationship was volatile (he is 22). He is now with a new girlfriend (who he was cheating on me with). I knew that he didn't want kids and we slept together, using protection so I wouldn't get pregnant. I then noticed a few days later that there was split in the condom afterwards which he didn't know about. I didn't take the morning after pill, as I thought I would be OK, but then I didn't have my period, so took a test.
I feel so alone as I'm not on good speaking terms with my ex. We work in the same building, so I still see him around, which makes me physically sick. Once I begin to show he will put 2 and 2 together very quickly (I've not been with anyone else). I am petrified that he will push me into having an abortion, which I don't want.
This baby wasn't exactly planned, but I know that I'm going to love it no matter what life throws at me, or how hard its going to be. I also know I have to be strong for the baby, but at the moment I just feel so weak and low.
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