I'm worried that I am either a very very bad mother, or i am suffering form PND.
The reason i say this is because I (and this is so difficukt for me to write down) dont seem to like my LO. Whenever he cries, all i can think is "god not again", like he's doing it just to wind me up. i know he's not he's just a baby. When he's having a particularly bad day, I kinda wish i didnt have him. I feel so awful for saying that. I only just realised about it, as i was reading a post about another member having to give up their dogs, and i thought to myself it would be harder parting with my dogs than it would my baby. What kind of mother am i to think such a thing. i feel awful, but dont know what to do. i really dont think I could tell my GP this as he'd think I'm awful.
Also I feel like I'm just going through the motions with him, being a pretend mother. Nothing seems to matter to me or get through to me. i feel like the baby prefers his Dad, and doesnt like me much. He smiles for his dad all the time, and just frowns at me, I feel resentful of the LO, and its killing me inside.
Does it sound like PND, or am I just horrible, bad person, and unfit mother?
The reason i say this is because I (and this is so difficukt for me to write down) dont seem to like my LO. Whenever he cries, all i can think is "god not again", like he's doing it just to wind me up. i know he's not he's just a baby. When he's having a particularly bad day, I kinda wish i didnt have him. I feel so awful for saying that. I only just realised about it, as i was reading a post about another member having to give up their dogs, and i thought to myself it would be harder parting with my dogs than it would my baby. What kind of mother am i to think such a thing. i feel awful, but dont know what to do. i really dont think I could tell my GP this as he'd think I'm awful.
Also I feel like I'm just going through the motions with him, being a pretend mother. Nothing seems to matter to me or get through to me. i feel like the baby prefers his Dad, and doesnt like me much. He smiles for his dad all the time, and just frowns at me, I feel resentful of the LO, and its killing me inside.
Does it sound like PND, or am I just horrible, bad person, and unfit mother?