Today was my EDD :(

[mishi]

Well I've been dreading this day coming, but also hoping that it would bring me some closure (although I hate that phrase).

I will no longer be saying to myself every Sunday well today I would have been xx many weeks.

This should have been a weekend filled with excitement and anticipation and getting hospital bags ready and staring at the crib that would soon hold our little boy, but it's not it's filled with a deep, deep sadness, regrets and a sense of what could have been.

It's hard, but I know we will get through it. We are going to write a card to my little man later and put it I our keepsake box, then I'm going to put it away and try to look forward and not back- easier said than done but that's the plan.

We will never forget out little bubs,will always love him, and will always wish things had been different, but I can't allow myself to be consumed by this anymore.

xxxxx

 

[kanga86]

Hun, I found that it got easier once I couldn't say I would be x weeks today. Although sometimes i think i could have a 8 month old by now, i dont think it will ever truly get over it and think what could have been. We let off a Chinese lantern for our LO in January. Xxx

 

[SunnySue]

Kanga is right, I it's not something we ever truly get over but it does get easier (as clichéd as that sounds). I hope that once today is over you will find it easier to move on, but you will never forget and rightly so

 

[longingforabump]

Aww Hun

It's food you are looking to move forward I've never been the same since my ectopic, it changed me completely as a person but now I have our scan pic up in a frame and am able to look at it without crying even though I do occasionally thing she would have been x old now etc xx

 

[dyscochick]

 

[MrsCow]

So sorry for ur loss honey, my due date is on bank hol monday, so I am revving up for it, hoping it feels better then, but at the mo feeling quite tearful. So hard, hope it gets a bit easier for you now, lots of hugs for all mummies whose little ones flew away xxx

 

[jojo3972]

Hugs mishi I'm glad u feel ur able to move forward altho the hurt never goes away just gets easier.as my edd gets closer and I get older I'm having more bad days again and the saturdays are bad for me as that's wen I would be a week further on it was getting easier but this last week its all come to much for me again and I feel with each week that passes its one week away from my bfp as I get older 40th is in 2 weeks :-/ I know I'm lucky to have my other kids and I'm gratefull for them I truly am but it doesn't make these last 2 losses any easier,I'm just realy down atm hope it gets easier for me once my edd is over x

 

[Princess81]

Huge hugs mishi - am sure this is such a hard time for you. Stay strong lots of love xx

 

[keljordan]

Xxx

 

[kiwifrootkai]

Hi Hun,

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so hard coming to terms with the fact that we now have an endless amount of milestones that will pass us by without a baby to show for it. I lost my little one three years ago and it still hurts everyday.

Thinking of you
xo

 

[Rednursie]

Mishi. I've heard that how you feel 'changes' after your due date also, but have yet to find out for myself. My due date would be this Saturday the 25th...
Writing a little note for your little man sounds like a lovely thing to do. I did that just before our cremation & found it very therapeutic-But also heartbreaking.
Take care xxx

 

[Mummy2toddler]

I am very sorry for your loss when I would of been due april/may this year my cousins girlfriend had her baby was horrible. xxx