mishi
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Well I've been dreading this day coming, but also hoping that it would bring me some closure (although I hate that phrase).
I will no longer be saying to myself every Sunday well today I would have been xx many weeks.
This should have been a weekend filled with excitement and anticipation and getting hospital bags ready and staring at the crib that would soon hold our little boy, but it's not it's filled with a deep, deep sadness, regrets and a sense of what could have been.
It's hard, but I know we will get through it. We are going to write a card to my little man later and put it I our keepsake box, then I'm going to put it away and try to look forward and not back- easier said than done but that's the plan.
We will never forget out little bubs,will always love him, and will always wish things had been different, but I can't allow myself to be consumed by this anymore.
xxxxx
I will no longer be saying to myself every Sunday well today I would have been xx many weeks.
This should have been a weekend filled with excitement and anticipation and getting hospital bags ready and staring at the crib that would soon hold our little boy, but it's not it's filled with a deep, deep sadness, regrets and a sense of what could have been.
It's hard, but I know we will get through it. We are going to write a card to my little man later and put it I our keepsake box, then I'm going to put it away and try to look forward and not back- easier said than done but that's the plan.
We will never forget out little bubs,will always love him, and will always wish things had been different, but I can't allow myself to be consumed by this anymore.
xxxxx