Bunnykins
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Sorry for this post it's probably going to sound really self pitying I lost my baby at Xmas and I thought I was finally doing ok, I knew I wasn't ready to come back on the main forum as all the other August 2014 mums will be in tri 2 now and I don't want to see it, but I thought I was otherwise coping great.
Turns out I'm not, I got my 2nd period since the miscarriage a few days ago (was fine during the last one!) and it's just knocked me for 6 emotionally, I spent all weekend barely able to get off the sofa I felt so low, I just keep thinking I should be pregnant not having a period then one of my best friends who miscarried the same week I did invited me over for a meal but she wasn't drinking so I think she may be pregnant again and if she is I'll be so over the moon for her but it's another reminder that I'm not. My sister is pregnant due 4 weeks after I would have been and again I'm overjoyed for her she has had her own troubles and deserves it soooooo much and up to now I've been really ok about it but she brought round the first babygro she has just bought today and for some reason looking at it made me want to cry I had an overwhelming feeling of wanting to be able to buy baby clothes for my baby but I can't because I'm not pregnant but I should be because this wasn't supposed to have happened it should have all been ok
I caught the tail end of one born every minute while channel surfing and I couldn't bear it, I normally love that show but it was like a physical pain in my chest so I had to turn it offl and go to bed early so I could have a good cry. Hubby and family don't understand they think I should be ok by now, in fact my mum and dad act like it never even happened, that 'it didn't count'. I just can't understand why I'm feeling worse this week and bothered by all things baby related when I was doing so well up until now I just want the emotional pain to go away.
Sorry for the wall of text
Turns out I'm not, I got my 2nd period since the miscarriage a few days ago (was fine during the last one!) and it's just knocked me for 6 emotionally, I spent all weekend barely able to get off the sofa I felt so low, I just keep thinking I should be pregnant not having a period then one of my best friends who miscarried the same week I did invited me over for a meal but she wasn't drinking so I think she may be pregnant again and if she is I'll be so over the moon for her but it's another reminder that I'm not. My sister is pregnant due 4 weeks after I would have been and again I'm overjoyed for her she has had her own troubles and deserves it soooooo much and up to now I've been really ok about it but she brought round the first babygro she has just bought today and for some reason looking at it made me want to cry I had an overwhelming feeling of wanting to be able to buy baby clothes for my baby but I can't because I'm not pregnant but I should be because this wasn't supposed to have happened it should have all been ok
I caught the tail end of one born every minute while channel surfing and I couldn't bear it, I normally love that show but it was like a physical pain in my chest so I had to turn it offl and go to bed early so I could have a good cry. Hubby and family don't understand they think I should be ok by now, in fact my mum and dad act like it never even happened, that 'it didn't count'. I just can't understand why I'm feeling worse this week and bothered by all things baby related when I was doing so well up until now I just want the emotional pain to go away.
Sorry for the wall of text