Mum2Many
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Did anyone else feel a bit shocked afterwards?
I've never had an ectopic pregnancy. I've been pregnant 16 times and this was the first and only one I've had. I truly never even thought of it as an option that could happen to me. And when my hCG levels were stupidly high it never even occurred to me it could be anything except a healthy pregnancy, even when 5 scans showed no pregnancy.
I feel shell shocked and dazed and the more I think about it, the more I can't get my head around how and why this happened to me. And then I get this niggling in the back of my head that says I deserved it. When I first saw that positive pregnancy line I panicked and hoped it wasn't true... God (or whoever) punished me for those thoughts by not only taking my baby back, but by taking away more of my already failing fertility/reproductive system.
Feeling very low today. It's the first day I've felt anything other than a bit numb and shocked. I just keep telling myself I've survived worse. I can get through this. But right now my heart has a hole in it that feels like it'll never mend.
I've never had an ectopic pregnancy. I've been pregnant 16 times and this was the first and only one I've had. I truly never even thought of it as an option that could happen to me. And when my hCG levels were stupidly high it never even occurred to me it could be anything except a healthy pregnancy, even when 5 scans showed no pregnancy.
I feel shell shocked and dazed and the more I think about it, the more I can't get my head around how and why this happened to me. And then I get this niggling in the back of my head that says I deserved it. When I first saw that positive pregnancy line I panicked and hoped it wasn't true... God (or whoever) punished me for those thoughts by not only taking my baby back, but by taking away more of my already failing fertility/reproductive system.
Feeling very low today. It's the first day I've felt anything other than a bit numb and shocked. I just keep telling myself I've survived worse. I can get through this. But right now my heart has a hole in it that feels like it'll never mend.