Alfiesmummy
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Im sorry for taking up space ladies as so many of you need advice more than me, its just its coming up to what would/should of been mine and ians first babies 1st birthday soon and its playing on my mind and bringing things back. I am so lucky to have Alfie and make no mistake i love him dearly with all my heart, but i cant help thinking that had our angel been born then what woul of been. Its bringing the whole thing back and tbh it was horrific i cant go into it but its killing me, will this ever get better, I have something so prescious and if we hadnt mc we wouldnt have alfie now and that upsets me too because god i love him, but will i ever get over our B? that was our name for the baby as we kept the pregnancy secret from friends before we lost B, family knew though but will i ever put my beautifull B to rest in my mind or will i always feel like this.
sorry again
sorry again