Shell's TTC Diary - *IVF/ICSI* - BFP!!!!

[chellieboo]

Thats great michelle. Hope Af arrives as expected for you.

I think the reason they have done no further tests on DH is cos of his history - they already have a reason so aren't gonna search for another one (and probably already expected that his sperm count would be affected cos of it), although perhaps if the surgery shows no improvement maybe they will.

You sound just like me with worrying/obsessing. glad i'm not the only one!

xxxx

 

[shellbham]

Day 113 - 10DPO

Its now 10dpo or it could be 13dpo as originally Fertility friend wasn't sure if i had ovulated 3 days earlier. I'm hoping it 13dpo as i dont have any feeling that AF is on its way and i think i have a 14 day LP, but more than likely i will be only 10dpo!

I still dont have any symptoms. The bloating and stitch like pain has gone now. I'm struggling to wake up in the morning and for 2 days have slept through all alarms, but i'm lazy anyway so i dont think this is anything new!! My nipples are a bit sore and seem like they are constantly sticking out! but i think i usually get this before AF as well. I'm so confused, its been sooooo long since my last AF that i cant even remember how i usually feel before it arrives. I think i usually get a lot more backache and cramps for about a week before but i haven't had anything really yet. Hope thats a good sign!!

Bye for now,

x

 

[shellbham]

Day 114 - 11DPO

Well i'm starting to wonder if i actaully ovulated 2 days later than FF suggests looking at my chart. Let me know what you think. It seems that there was a clearer shift in temperature on Monday 23rd. Which would make me only 9dpo today! I hope not. So now i have 3 possible ovulation dates and i could be 14, 11 or 9 dpo!!

Good news..............

After all that cake over the weekend, i lost 1.5 pounds at weight watchers today! So i have lost 8 pounds so far and i've still got another week before my holiday to lose a bit more. I've rewarded myself with a baguette and a few chips!

So if anyone one has a better idea of when i ovulated from my chart please post....i really dont want another 2 days added on! I'm wondering if that was why i was bloated and felt like i had stitch now??!

Bye for now,

Michelle x

 

[shellbham]

Day 116 - 13DPO

Hi

Didn't have chance to post yesterday. Went out with a friend & her 2 children and another friend. Was a bit hectic with a 6 & 3 year old but had a lovely day. By the time i got home i was worn out though and ended up with a terrible headache Went to bed quite early for me and thankfully i haven't woke up with a headache today.

Today i have been getting a lot of cramps and feel very emotional and negative. I feel like anything could make me cry at the moment. So i think Af is on its way. I dont feel like we will have been lucky. The only strange thing is i usually get really sore boobs anything from 4 days to a week before AF, and up to now i haven't. Usually i cant even go up and down the stairs without being in pain. My nipples are still sore but thats it! I dont know whats going on.

I'm praying Af doesn't turn up over the weekend and then i will test on either Monday or tuesday, but i'm not hopeful.


x

 

[shellbham]

Oooh I'm so excited. DH has just called to say that we have an appointment next Friday for the consultation for IVF!!! I go on holiday later that day so it will be a rush but i'm so pleased we've finally got an appointment. They said that treatment usually starts quite quickly afterwards.

So at least if AF arrives i wont feel too bad as we have moved a step closer to IVF. This may be turning into an IVF diary sooner than i thought!!

See you soon,

Michelle x

 

[chellieboo]

Thats fantastic news!!! I can't wait to hear how you get on. Which clinic are you going to if you don't mind me asking?

I had a look at your chart and I think you ov'd day 103 or day 105, dunno which is more likely though.

xxxxx

 

[shellbham]

Thats fantastic news!!! I can't wait to hear how you get on. Which clinic are you going to if you don't mind me asking?

I had a look at your chart and I think you ov'd day 103 or day 105, dunno which is more likely though.

xxxxx

Thanks for replying about my chart. Thats what i think too but dont know which! Oh well i guess i will in a few days!!

We are going to The Priory in Birmingham. We was looking at Nurture or Care which are both in Nottingham but decided that it probably wasn't a good idea to add an hours journey to our worries! We are on the NHS waiting list also but hopefully we wont need that.

Where are you looking at going to?

Michelle x

 

[shellbham]

CD2

Well as you can see a miracle didn't happen before we move on to IVF! AF is definately here and making me suffer! I'm going to spend the day on the sofa with a hot water bottle. Still haven't had sore boobs which has been the thing thats been confusing me as i always have this before AF. I wonder if the agnus castus stopped that, as i read that it can help with pms symptoms??!! I'll have to look into that.

Suprisingly i dont feel too upset. Maybe its because i know that we have our 1st appointment now so things are starting to progress. Last night there were a few tears but i've got up today feeling quite positive.

I think that it upset me as i knew that AF arriving meant we would defnately be starting IVF and that last chance of a miracle had gone. While i'm really pleased & excited that we're getting treatment and i could get pregnant, i'm also terrified and really wish i didn't have to do it. I know that i'm not going to be able to inject myself no matter how much training they give me, i actually feel nervous thinking about it. Does anyone know if you can get your GP to do them for you? I dont know if i trust DH to do it properly!

Anyway......there's no point even thinking about all this just yet. Its only our first consultation. I can get into a panic after Friday!!

I'll update soon.

Michelle x

 

[shellbham]

First Consultation for IVF

Just wanted to to do a quick update about our first consultation at the clinic. I go on holiday in half an hour so it will be very quick and brief!! The consultant was really nice. I was a bit worried about what he would be like, he is meant to be the top one there but i had heard he can be very to the point and blunt, but he was lovely, so that was reassuring!

He is sending me a prescription for the drugs in the post - i was quite shocked that ithis would happen so soon. They have to do another sperm test, so that is booked for the 21st august and they are going to let us know about seeing the embryologist for a chat about the procedure (apparantly they have to do this to explain the risks etc).

It feels so weird that everything is now moving along! He said that it doesn't matter about what day i start so i'm not so worried now about it having to be on day 21. He said that because i'm so irregular they will just start me any day. I'm relieved about this as now it means that it wont be ages away until i start as they wont need to induce a bleed and then wait 21 days again. So i could be starting sooner than i thought! I'm definately worried now!!

Michelle x

 

[chellieboo]

I realise you're probably on holiday now, but just wanted to say that is fantastic news about your consultation. Hopefully not long now till you'll be another stat to add to their successful treatments!

i'm not sure the GP would be able to do your injections for you as its done once a day and I think that would be a lot of trips to the GP. I imagine it'll probably be easier than you think once you get used to it.

We are looking at Bourn hall primarily at the moment, although have got info from a couple of others as well.

Hope you have a fab hol xxxxx

 

[shellbham]

Well, i'm back from holiday and back to stressing about TTC!!! It was lovely to get away but i found myself missing DH, which i wasn't expecting!!

We're still not much further forward with the IVF. DH had to go for sperm test at the clinic on tuesday but we haven't heard anything about the results as yet. We're also waiting for our appointment to see the embryologist, so they can discuss all the risks etc. The doctor has already sent out the prescription for all the drugs and it looks like they will cost a lot less than we imagined they would. I just want to get started now, but it seems like you still have to do a lot of waiting around even when you're paying for private treatment!!

Anyway, i'll update again when i actually have some news!!

Michelle x

 

[chellieboo]

welcome back sweetie.

glad you had a good holiday despite missing DH.

hope things will be moving quickly for you very soon xxx

 

[shellbham]

Hi

Well......we still haven't properly been told what DH's sperm test results were. We're used to being told count, morphology etc but i think they may have done it differently this time. With ICSI they pick out the good sperm and inject it into the egg, so i think they have counted how many good ones there were this time as they would when we have the IVF. This is me just guessing though, as DH spoke to them and he is useless and finding out and passing on info!! Anyway, there were 100 good sperm. I have no idea if this is good or bad, but i suppose they only need a few.

Our next appointment is the 18th September. This is for a chat with the embryologist so they can explain all the risks etc of the treatment. We should find out when we start while we're there. Hopefully they dont say anything to put me off as i have already had doubts about if i can do this. It looks as though DH will be away with work a lot during all the injections and i really dont know if i can do them on my own. All i've been thinking about is these injections!!! I'm obsessed!! DH told me to just wait to see what the needles look like 1st and then make a decision about whether i'll be able to do them. Which makes sense, he thinks i'll be fine if it is only a very small needle (i don't!! )

I have bought an IVF relaxation CD from amazon . A bit new age for me and i probably wont end up using it but i'm hoping it may help me to calm down about the needle issue and get rid of all the negativity i have about the treatment. It doesn't hurt to try, does it?!

Michelle x

 

[chellieboo]

hey honey

Goodluck with the appointment on the 18th, I'm sure they'll go through DHs sperm result then.

I'm sure you'll be fine with the injections...when you think of why you're doing it I'm sure that'll override your fear of injecting.

We're off to an open day today, hoping we're gonna like it as its our first choice of place for treatment, and we've already provisonally booked an appointment with them for end of sept for a consultation and further tests etc. feel like things are finally starting to happen after months in limbo.

Dh has had his operation but it didn't go too well - lots of scar tissue or something, so we're not too hopeful that it'll have made any difference.

 

[shellbham]

Hi Chelliboo

How did the open day go? Was this at Bourne Hall?

I'm sorry to hear the operation didn't go well. When will you know if it has worked or not?

I agree with you how good it feels to finally have something happening. Most of the time it seems as though you're just waiting for appointments or tests, so its so exciting when things finally start moving.

Michelle x

 

[shellbham]

One last chance before IVF???
CD30 - 3DPO!!

Well after the unbelievably long cycle i just had of 117 days FF thinks i have ovulated on day 27!!! I thought last month was our last chance for a miricle before IVF started but it looks like we may have been given 1 more go! Good in one way as you never know what might happen, bad on the other hand as AF will be due to arrive the day i'm going to a wedding and also this may put our start date back further. So i'm excited and hopeful but fed up at the same time.....why doesn't my body ever do what i want it too!! Oh well it may be wrong, i'll have to wait to see what my temps are like for the next few days.

xxx

 

[chellieboo]

Hi Shell

yeah the open day was bourn hall. It went really well. we both really like the atmosphere there and the consultant we chatted to was really friendly.

we'll know whether DHs op was a success as soon as he's ready to produce a sperm sample for analysis.

Goodluck with your miracle....maybe fate is stepping in and thats why you've OV'd.

 

[shellbham]

Our appointment has been brought forward. We are now going to see the embryologist for the ICSI chat on the 13th September, only 8 days away! They have also said that we can see the nurse to arrange our start date. I'm so excited!!

Just thought i would update.

x

 

[shellbham]

Hi Shell

yeah the open day was bourn hall. It went really well. we both really like the atmosphere there and the consultant we chatted to was really friendly.

we'll know whether DHs op was a success as soon as he's ready to produce a sperm sample for analysis.

Goodluck with your miracle....maybe fate is stepping in and thats why you've OV'd.

I've heard really good things about bourn hall. Its meant to be a good clinic. Its important to like the atmosphere. If you dont feel comfortable somewhere its hard to put your trust in them.

 

[chellieboo]

Our appointment has been brought forward. We are now going to see the embryologist for the ICSI chat on the 13th September, only 8 days away! They have also said that we can see the nurse to arrange our start date. I'm so excited!! x

thats fantastic news! Less than 1 week to go. do you know how long after this appointment you'll be starting treatment? Doh, just read you'll be discussing that with the nurse!

Let us know how you get on. will be for you.