you cant just make yourself better, it is unfortunatly a time thing, and again everyone is different, some people feel better in days some months some years, you wont ever forget and you will always think about the ones you lost but it is possible to move on but only when you are ready. the tat sounds a nice way to remember them a lovely tribute. dont worry about being preg again, it takes everyone different times to bleed, they told me after d&e that it would be 4-6weeks and i think it was 5 weeks after my initial op, though i bled for quite a while after
think everyones body reacts differently, just give it time and look to the support of those around you. some people find counsellors are best some find their freinds, some prefer to write it all down in a diary rather than talking about it, i feel now able to discuss my baby and what happened though in total i actually told very few people and i felt like screaming everytime a freind told me i was brave even though i apprichiated the support as i didnt feel it at the time, i now realise bravery is coping in a difficult situation as best you can and even though you think im falling apart im not being brave at all actually you are, because by carrying on with your life (even if its not back to normal) that is being brave. maybe check how your hormone levels are i know for a fact it took about a month for mine to settle. big hugs, im just going to say be strong you can get through this xxxxxx
