Not really a question- but so many emotions....

[furbaby]

Ok it is exactly one week ago since I had my c section and today so far is probably one of the only days I haven't felt too tearful or cried (yet)

I am over the moon to be a new mummy and chuffed to bits with my baby and hubby for being amazing but I feel so helpless and frustrated- I had a pretty long birth and dr said it would take a while to recover as I hadn't only had a c section but as far as my body is concerned gone though labour too (16hours of it!)

I guess I feel useless not being able to bend properly to pick my son up and relying on my hubby so much to do almost everything- to top it off breast feeding has not worked out for us (another thread in feeding) and I feel guilty and relieved at the same time.

Since leaving the hospital I also have to have injections twice daily claxaine to prevent blood clots for 6 weeks! I am horribly needle phobic and these injects involve pushing 4ml of fluid into fat- it hurts like hell ;(

To top it off I became so badly constipated- fecal impaction- that I couldn't sit down with out crying and spent all day lying on one side - after dipositories dr prescribed something more harsh (maybe too harsh) a fleet enema - which hurt so bad and because that didn't work completely the dr suggested manual evacuation I won't go into the gory details we all have google but I cried a lot and it hurt so bad

Now that thats finished with and I started to feel a little bit better today I am now obsessing over my health- I'm paranoid something will go wrong like maybe they nicked something during the operation or that I will get a blood clot and die or like today I have had some aches in my chest (NOT PAIN) just aches when I go to the toilet or move to quickly - rationally I know it's probably just from over excurting and the ordeal of yesterday but irrationally I keep thinking what if it's something more serious what if ....


I'm terrified of hubby going back to work next week as I still can't do most things on my own so will be spending days at my parents - how silly is that to be afraid to be alone at home with the baby, my baby?

I guess I just feel pretty morbid right now worrying about everything not just myself - but if something happened to my partner?

I hate feeling this way xxxx

 

[littlemiss83]

I dont really have much in the way of advice coz i've not had a section but I can only imagine how hard it is to not even bend down. I think ppl tend to forget that its a major operation.

With regards to you thinking something is gonna happen...i was like that for a while - i had nightmares that I would die & what would happen to LO, would OH be able to cope ect. I think its something all new mums go thro.

xxxxxxxxx

 

[furbaby]

I dont really have much in the way of advice coz i've not had a section but I can only imagine how hard it is to not even bend down. I think ppl tend to forget that its a major operation.

With regards to you thinking something is gonna happen...i was like that for a while - i had nightmares that I would die & what would happen to LO, would OH be able to cope ect. I think its something all new mums go thro.

xxxxxxxxx

Thank you, it helps knowing I'm not alone in feeling perhaps a tad dramatic and morbid.... Combined with not a single nights sleep since my section, i guess i feel overwhelmed

Xxxx

 

[emmabeg]

I also had a section and felt so teary & helpless, cried like a baby myself when hubby went back to work. However four weeks later I started to feel like my old self and even managed to get my house back in order today. Although its not easy sitting back you have had a major operation so take the time to recover and things will get better in time.

 

[BabyBrain]

How are you feeling now chick? After my c-section I was tipped into the hormonal pit of despair so know how you feel. I had been so looking forward to moving about more after the birth and having an emergency section made me feel crap about it too. The hormones will fade soon enough, one thing that I did was I didn't fight them. If I wanted to cry I cried, I wasn't brave, I didn't try to hide it, I just went with the emotions.

Like you bf didn't work for us either so I had many "I'm a failure" crying fits about it.

With my section it hurt like hell for a while then after about 10 days I started to feel so much more like my old self. You have to take it very easy and give yourself plenty of time to do things. Listen to your body and don't push it, if it's a choice between rushing around tidying and putting your feet up with a cuppa.....have the cuppa. I've waited the full 6 weeks to start driving again but I've been walking out with the pram doing about 5 miles a day for the last couple of weeks but we are lucky here cos we are close to the river. Gentle exercise and then plenty of rest and cuddles with LO and you''l be right as rain in no time xxxxxxxxx

 

[pixie17]

hi

sounds like you had a similar experience to me. i was in labour for 17 hours then had to have an emergency c-section. during the first week my hubby had to do everything as i couldnt move. it hurt to go to the toilet as i felt sitting down was pulling my stitches. it took ages to empty my bladder properly. i had to get something to help me poo as it was 'stuck'. also breastfeeding didnt work for me either. i now know i had thrush in my breast and he didnt latch properly. it was pretty hard going. what i can say is that IT WILL GET BETTER, i promise. its really hard going and we deserve a trophy for going through it all. please try and make the best of your situation and enjoy what you have, the early days are so precious. i really regret not trying to do this. x

 

[Bee7]

I know exactly how you feel hun. I had an emergency section. It was so unexpected and completely not what i'd hoped or planned for. Afterwards i couldn't do anything for Jack and luckily OH was amazing. But although i was happy that he was so good with him, it made me feel useless and for a long time i continued to let OH do everything because i just believed he could do it better than me.

I did plan to BF but after the section i was so drained i just had nothing left to give. Once Jack started on bottles he took to them really well and it seemed silly to take him off them, but i did feel sad that i didn't have the chance to BF. I also had those horrible clotting injections. I found it helps to get someone else to do them rather than administering them yourself.

I know it doesnt feel like it now but things WILL improve. When your OH goes back to work you will have the time to bond with baby. I was terrified but it was the best thing that could happen. I HAD to start doing things for Jack and couldn't rely on OH anymore. It built my confidence and now i'm very much the one in charge!

Stick it out hun, this feeling won't last forever xxx

 

[Hunnie]

This is such a normal thing to feel! I felt robbed of a natural birth because of my c section and its still a sore point for me.

All i can advise is make the most of your immobility to spend time cuddling baby all day )