not coping tonight

[tracey 2]

just like title says not having a good night its been an ok day havent done a lot went to a meeting that finished really early so came home and havent done much,

im just finding it hard to keep myself busy of an evening i am thinking of doing something maybe join a gym or even go swimming of an evening because i dont know if anyone else feels like this but the more time i have on my hands the harder it its to deal with everything, but then some days i need to have quiet relaxing time with nothing to do, it sounds weird really some days i need to be busy other days i dont.

last night was hard as well but i dont know why nothing happened to uoset me or anything i just started to feel lower and lower and i couldnt pull myself out of it like i was in a trance couldnt talk to anyone and tonight its the same but i dont feel upset really.

anyway not much more i can put i suppose just release in a way for me to write it down

from a very confused tracey

 

[mum2be?]

i really dont know what to say hun.

im here to listen if you need

 

[zebrastripes]

really hope you feel better soon

 

[kazlin]

Want to give you these Tracey hun

 

[A&J]

 

[clucky77]

THings will get better hun. I feel crap tonight too- but keep telling myself things will get better.

 

[sarah113]

 

[klee1988]

Your not alone hun. I feel exactly the same. Sounded like i was writing this post.
I'm here if you ever need a chat xox

 

[mum&2girls]

 

[tracey 2]

thank you all guys not sure what to do with myself tonight i know tommorrow will be better it always does in a way its scaring me that i have absolutely no power over these feelings at all i cant explain it really i cant even cry or scream like something inside of me telling myself not to let go,

i think corrie and maria story line set me off quite bit tonight i didnt cry i was just sick the moment they told her i couldnt watch anymore but couldnt cry just made me heave i didnt think it would hurt so so much

sorry guys im rambling on now but thanks for all the hugs

 

[emx279]

 

[rach]

hun sending you loads of hugs xxxx

 

[angiemum2b]

sending you loads of