Tanya4beauty
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Hi girls,
I should be 11 weeks pregnant right now but I had a tiny amount of blood the last two mornings and was scanned yesterday. My baby died at 7wks 3 days. What's heartbreaking is I had a private scan when I was 8 weeks 4 days and saw a heartbeat but baby measured 7wks 3 days which means my baby died just after I saw it alive. I never understood the pain of a miscarriage. I feel empty, in limbo, like my life has been a lie for the past few weeks while my body let me carry my dead baby while I wandered around happily dreaming of him/her.
This just feels like a bad dream. I can't stop crying. I woke up sobbing and I can't sleep. What's worse is knowing my dead baby is still inside and I have to wait to pass him/her.
I feel so angry and cheated and it hurts so much like my hearts been ripped out.
Im so so grateful I have my baby girl right now but feel like I've failed to give her a brother or sister. Everyone keeps saying it happens for a reason, must have been something wrong with it and you can try again. But I wanted THIS baby and it hurts so much xxxxxx
I should be 11 weeks pregnant right now but I had a tiny amount of blood the last two mornings and was scanned yesterday. My baby died at 7wks 3 days. What's heartbreaking is I had a private scan when I was 8 weeks 4 days and saw a heartbeat but baby measured 7wks 3 days which means my baby died just after I saw it alive. I never understood the pain of a miscarriage. I feel empty, in limbo, like my life has been a lie for the past few weeks while my body let me carry my dead baby while I wandered around happily dreaming of him/her.
This just feels like a bad dream. I can't stop crying. I woke up sobbing and I can't sleep. What's worse is knowing my dead baby is still inside and I have to wait to pass him/her.
I feel so angry and cheated and it hurts so much like my hearts been ripped out.
Im so so grateful I have my baby girl right now but feel like I've failed to give her a brother or sister. Everyone keeps saying it happens for a reason, must have been something wrong with it and you can try again. But I wanted THIS baby and it hurts so much xxxxxx