My pledge.........

[kellysomer]

I am not too sure where to post this, so will post in here as it is connected to my PND

I am currently suffering with both PND and PTSD following my horrid birth of Morgan. I am slowly coming to terms with what happened thanks to councelling and a good HV. Today i made a turning point, a pledge to myself to say thank you to the world for bringing Morgan safely through uncertain odds.

I have grieved the birth i didnt get and churned what could have happened in my head, i have even planned his funeral in my mind(i am ill i know that, i am sorry if this offends). It gets me nowhere.

SO..... I am going to become a blood donor and give something back to the world. Also i am going to become a breastmilk donor too. Donor milk was offered to Morgan when he was in neonatal and i was thankful although i fed him in the end. If someone hadnt given thier milk we could have been very stuck. So, i am going to give mine.

I am hoping that this will make me feel like i am worth something finally and help a baby who without it could have been much worse off. Maybe even save a life.

(Sorry for the rant, i am very emotional still and am crying now. God i;m pathetic!)

 

[beanie]

Sounds like you are takig control and that is a massive thing. You are making some positive steps and I really hope you continue to do so

 

[1sttimemum]

you are not pathetic and dont ever believe you are, what your doing is an amazing thing , not only donating blood but breast milk too, you will be helping sooo many people out.

I hope you are able to beat PND completely and enjoy your son

 

[happy-chick]

Oh hun it really sounds like a turning point for you and im so pleased. Your doing really well & you should be proud of yourself.

Im glad counselling is helping (im still waiting for an appointment & Ellie is almost 5months ), it takes time but you will look back & feel so much strength from what you have got through. Depression is so hard, its a constant battle but you will come out the other side a stronger person

Keep your chin up hun PM me if u wanna chat xx

 

[LisaJ1986]

That's amazing! From the sound of your post this is a huge step towards positive things!
I wanna do the same as someone helped my nephew while he was in neo-natal!