So my lovely little Harry turned 1 today!
Even though I knew it was coming I still can't quite believe it. I keep thinking about what I was doing this time last year...!! He had a nice birthday despite a streaming cold and a cough - we went to the play gym and he seemed to enjoy it, although he was a little clingy and still a bit small for lots of the things there.
He's really been changing a lot over the last few weeks and seems to understand more. He points at things, sometimes with both fingers, waves at everything (except when he's supposed to wave!) and has taken his first few steps on his own, gaining confidence all the time
I really enjoy playing with him and he keeps a smile on my face a lot of the time, although I am slightly dreading when he can walk properly!
Anyway, I wrote something for him that I will show him in years to come, but thought I would post in here too as it expresses some of my feelings for him, although it's so hard to put the love I feel for him into words - you mummys will understand!
"To my gorgeous Harry on your 1st birthday
I know you can't understand me but I wanted to write something down for you to read in years to come, so you know how special you are to me and how much I love you.
You are my handsome son. Even now, a year after you were born, I often look at you in wonderment. How can I be mummy to this perfect being, a little person who's starting to understand more and more about the world.
It's so amazing to watch to develop and I'm so happy that you've started to recognise me as your mummy. When I haven't seen you for a while, you always give me your beautiful smile when I come into the room, looking so pleased to see me, it fills me with joy and makes my heart sing.
My biggest pleasure in life is seeing you smile and when you laugh, I forget all my worries and laugh right along with you – it brings me happiness I could never have imagined!
There's so many things I love about you my darling (everything!) but I will only write a few examples down now.
Your never ending curiosity, always looking, exploring with your hands, turning something this way and that, before putting it in your mouth – you have to see how it tastes of course!
Your little noises, exclamations and sighs which are the running commentary you provide to our day. Your conversations with yourself, which surely makes sense to you and which often sound like real words to me (Yay! Dad! Tea! You do love drinking tea!) How soon before I get to speak to you my lovely boy and have you speak real words back?! I can't wait for that!
Meal times are funny too – your little foot sticking out of the high chair, usually the left one. I love the way you examine a piece of food before you eat, waving it around, turning it over, squishing it, before finally deciding to taste it!
Your constant wiggle – always on the move. You can't sit still even when you're having your bottle, a little hand or foot tapping away. So much wiggling to do, so little time!
And now my baby is growing into a big boy. How did that year pass so quickly? The most wonderful year ever!
Part of me doesn't want you to ever grow up, you're so cute and cuddly. I can always go to you, pick you up whenever I want and cover your gorgeous little face with kisses. You will only be a baby for a short time more and I will miss your smiling innocence, your constant babble, your pudgy, ever moving hands, even your sweet little cry, the way you look up at me with your big, brown eyes, plus all the other gestures you make, the new pointing,(often with both fingers at the same time) the waving at everything, the wibble wibble noise you make with your hand and so many other things it's impossible to say!
But on the other hand, I really want to talk to you and have you talk back, to watch you learn, to teach you, to be able to take you to places you're still too young to enjoy. So I'm excited for the future. As long as you are there with me my darling Harry, I can face whatever life throws at me. You are my biggest joy and I love you more than all the words in the would can say.
Love you forever
Your mummy
15th November 2013"
Happy birthday my darling Harry!!! xxxxxxxx
ps pics coming later xxx