Jealous and upset

[broody2013]

I hate how I am feeling because I know I shouldn't be jealous - please can I fill you in.

I got married in June 2013 and we are WTT as I am coming off fluoxetine and we didn't want to risk the baby being damaged by it. I am likely to be off this by March but progress is slow. There is also a strong history of multiple miscarriages in our family.

Both my friends have one child already. At one of them's birthday meal, both announced their second pregnancies! I was happy for them but I can't help but think about how sad I am that I dont know when we will be safe to TCC, and also the likelihood we will have to wait a long time for a baby, and also risk of m/c

I am also getting phantom pregnancy symptoms all the time, nausea, off certain foods, etc. And I know I am not pregnant as I have had my period regular and am taking the pill every evening. Some days when I get a symptom I just want to cry with frustration as I know my body is playing tricks on me.

I don't think if there is any advice I can get but just feel so alone with the BFP all around me that I can't yet even hope for.

 

[LikeJohnnYoko]

It's really hard, isn't it? But it's also totally okay to feel like this, I know I do because I have to wait for various things too (we'll need to negotiate what we're doing with my meds nearer the time) and it's hard to see people being able to move forward faster.

 

[ali13]

It is so hard hun, it might feel like everything is against you right now, but it won't always feel that way, and you will get your moment too when the time is right. As soon as we decided that we wanted to have a family and we are 'officially' wtt, all I can do is think about it! Stick with your plan for now hun xxx

 

[Bunnykins]

Oh hon I feel for you, I ttc for 4 years for my lo and it was like a knife in the heart every pregnancy around me, nothing I can say will make you feel better its a rubbish situation for you having to wait when all you want is for it to happen now, but it will be your turn one day and when it is the wait will be worth it *hug*

 

[mylullaby]

I can completely relate to this. We're waiting until we're married, which isn't that long now, but it feels like it's been forever. Most of my friends have babies, hundreds of gorgeous little kids play out around our little close - with one of the neighbours now expecting again too. Impossible to avoid! Of course, it's slightly different for you as your health reasons could make it feel like less of a "choice" than for me, but we've kind of had to make our "choice" for financial and practical reasons rather than emotional ones - and as we all know, it's the emotional ones that are the strongest when it comes to babies!

You're doing what's right for you though and I'd be doing exactly the same if I were you. Your health and that of your baby are THE most important thing. Hard enough that you'll have your family history on your mind, without the added pressure of conceiving while you're still on your medication. It's natural that you're envious when friends announce their pregnancies, but what's the right time for them isn't necessarily the right time for you - and when your time comes, you can bet your bottom dollar there'll be someone you know who's secretly jealous of you too!

Good luck with everything xxx