boils my piss!
hope you start to feel better soon, i had a laprascopy 8 years ago for ectopic, I woke in a room on the maternity ward of all places as there were no other beds available, needless to say i had to discharge myself that night as it make the heartbreak a thousand times worse hearing all the babies crying. I spent that night in agony at home.
The thing that i found hard was that everyone around me was concerned for me, whereas i didnt care about me i was grieving my loss.
Take time to grieve, anger will be a big part of it too, but dont deny it.
sending you a huge bag of love x