Im so ashamed

[Starlight1986]

So I have such a lovely life, I have 2 wonderful girls a 2yr 8 month old and a 10 month old.

My oldest is pushing her boundaries at the moment which I know is completely normal and up until this week I wasn't finding it difficult.
I was rushing about this morning trying to get ready and she wouldn't come down the stairs after me calling and calling her. She just lay a the top saying no. So I lost my temper....I went up the stairs, grabbed her arm and literally dragged her down the stairs and dressed her while she was crying.

I feel sick even talking about it. As if I didn't feel utterly terrible enough when we got in the car I said I was really sorry and asked if id hurt her, she said no but that she is scared of me. I asked why and she says she is scared when I shout at her. I asked if she was scared of anything else and she said no mummy just you.

I'm actually in tears writing this, I feel utterly horrible and really quite ashamed. Ive never lost my temper like that, Im not a "shouter" and I have never ever smacked. Infact my husband has a more "shouty" voice than me.

Don't know what else to say really

 

[Karenb]

No experience but I'd suggest at that age she is only thinking about that recent event... She was probably shocked as its not how you'd usually act. If she was genuinely scared of you, I doubt she'd test the boundaries quite so much and act in a way to make you shout? Please don't feel terrible, I'm sure everyone has lost it!

 

[Becky1]

Don't feel bad hun, at that age they can test the patience of a saint. They also forget things very very quickly, right now she prob won't even remember what happened. My ds pushes me all the time, couple of times I've got angry and shouted. Once he pushed me so far I just started sobbing - ironically that shut him up! xxx

 

[Rooster30]

I have shouted at my son a fair few times. At the moment he is really testing both me and my OH. Frankly we're not having a fun time. He's extremely stubborn which means he's very disobedient, then he gets sent to naughty corner and usually I get hit and that's when I start to feel so angry and tend to get a bit loud. Gosh I can't wait for this horrid age to be over.

He's currently fighting bedtime because he's too stroppy (his words).