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Me and Andrew have decided it is time to get married and have gotten a date for the 8th February 2014, I am over the moon and cannot wait. We have known this for 2 weeks but I've just not had time to come and let you all know.
Anyway, I asked my mum to give me away on the day and she said yes ( my mum is a drug user and alcoholic) and I have been in foster care from the age of 9 to 14 because of her but thought I would ask her anyway to try and give her something to look forward too.
Well on Tuesday my mum asked me to get her a loan in my name to which I replied no because I know exactly what she wants the money for even though she says its for food, I told her why I wouldn't get her one (because I can't watch her kill herself much longer) which she said was okay and she understood that, anyway she got my grandma to ring me that same night to ask if she could go on my laptop, I said no again because she wanted to come rund to my house at 7:30pm at night and sit in my house and go on Facebook, anyway that was that and it was left alone.
The next day I get a phone call off my nanna saying "your mum said she wants nothing to do with you ever again and you can f**k off and find someone else to give you away" I was shaking, crying and basically raging angry because of this.
The thing is my mum lost all her children due to neglecting us, child cruelty and hitting us and not feeding my younger brother who was 2 at the time, we got taken into are anyway and I was in the same foster placement as my brother for 3 years when social services decided it was best that he was adopted so that he could have a stable life, I loved my brother to pieces and it broke my heart to see him go, I will never fully forgive my mum for that and have always been angry at her for it.
Whilst being in care my mum got pregnant and had a little girl to a heroin user who was taken from her at birth, 2 months later she was pregnant again with another little girl who also got taken from her at birth, when I asked my mum why she got pregnant again when she had already had me, my brother and a baby taken from her her reply was "I didn't mean to, I didn't want to use a condom because its like sha****g a plastic bag" anyway as you can imagine my mum is a waste of human life but this is how she treats me anyway.
I don't know how I have forgiven her so many times for things she has caused in the past but I have, my mum is a cannabis, amphetamine and cocaine user and drinks on a daily basis, I also think she uses heroin but I am not 100% sure.
Should I block her out of my life altogether now as I can't face this anymore, she is pure evil and she will not give me away on the biggest day of my life. It's sad really.
This started off as a happy thread and ended like this, anyway I just needed a rant and I'm sorry for the long post
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Anyway, I asked my mum to give me away on the day and she said yes ( my mum is a drug user and alcoholic) and I have been in foster care from the age of 9 to 14 because of her but thought I would ask her anyway to try and give her something to look forward too.
Well on Tuesday my mum asked me to get her a loan in my name to which I replied no because I know exactly what she wants the money for even though she says its for food, I told her why I wouldn't get her one (because I can't watch her kill herself much longer) which she said was okay and she understood that, anyway she got my grandma to ring me that same night to ask if she could go on my laptop, I said no again because she wanted to come rund to my house at 7:30pm at night and sit in my house and go on Facebook, anyway that was that and it was left alone.
The next day I get a phone call off my nanna saying "your mum said she wants nothing to do with you ever again and you can f**k off and find someone else to give you away" I was shaking, crying and basically raging angry because of this.
The thing is my mum lost all her children due to neglecting us, child cruelty and hitting us and not feeding my younger brother who was 2 at the time, we got taken into are anyway and I was in the same foster placement as my brother for 3 years when social services decided it was best that he was adopted so that he could have a stable life, I loved my brother to pieces and it broke my heart to see him go, I will never fully forgive my mum for that and have always been angry at her for it.
Whilst being in care my mum got pregnant and had a little girl to a heroin user who was taken from her at birth, 2 months later she was pregnant again with another little girl who also got taken from her at birth, when I asked my mum why she got pregnant again when she had already had me, my brother and a baby taken from her her reply was "I didn't mean to, I didn't want to use a condom because its like sha****g a plastic bag" anyway as you can imagine my mum is a waste of human life but this is how she treats me anyway.
I don't know how I have forgiven her so many times for things she has caused in the past but I have, my mum is a cannabis, amphetamine and cocaine user and drinks on a daily basis, I also think she uses heroin but I am not 100% sure.
Should I block her out of my life altogether now as I can't face this anymore, she is pure evil and she will not give me away on the biggest day of my life. It's sad really.
This started off as a happy thread and ended like this, anyway I just needed a rant and I'm sorry for the long post
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