Im back, with less than brilliant news!

[kirlou]

well as some of you know i was having a bit of a chilled month after having not very good results (little did we know how bad) from hubbies first sperm sample, that relaxed month was going so well until an hour and a half ago!

went to the dr to get the 2nd sample results to be told on the 1st sample (origionally told hight abnormality is normal but no actual amounts) that yes there was a high rate of abnormality infact so high that normal sperm was non existant! 2nd sample fared slightly better, 1% normal sperm above 4% they consider a decent amount.

They said that we would have to have assisted IVF, and as alot of you know we already have a son so we will have to fund this ourselves so that actually means that we are going to have to keep trying and hope for the best cos theres not a chance in hell that we will be able to afford IVF at the moment so as you could imagine im gutted and just feel like curling up in a ball.

Luckily hubbies taking it slightly better this time around, however i am not and just want cut his useless piece off!!!!!!
im hoping that this urge goes with time!!!

 

[LoopyLouize]

Awww sweetie im so so sorry!

I know your must be feeling so low right now but wanting to cut your hubbys bits of wont make it any better for you! Infact .. it would be even less a chance for you!!

Miracles CAN happen and fingers crossed your miracle will come to you sooner than you know! It is obviously possible as you do have a lil one already so never say never!

xxx

 

[kirlou]

thank you, i suppose at least now I know that theres no point getting my hopes up every month and then IF and a big IF it does happen it will be even better. I just feel so heart broken!

 

[LouiseB]

Oh, i'm so sorry Kirlou

Have you thought about maybe asking grandparents or parents for a cheeky bit of early inheritence?

You can get it cheaper if you donate your eggs to other couples, i'm under the assumption of significantly cheaper.

Maybe you could look into research opportunities? Sometimes if you fit a particular demographic they will offer you free treatments to allow that to try out new techniques and things.

Plus you could adopt or foster as you already have a biological child... just some options anyway.

It doesn't have to be the end of your dream of having another child if you don't want it to be

 

[Baby Bean]

Awww hun, hugs fingers crossed it will happen. Just seen you are in carshalton... me too! Small world x

 

[LoopyLouize]

I think the most important thing here is to keep "hoping".. Without it you will lead yourself into a downward spiral of sadness.. And even if your BFP sounds so far away right now.. You never ever ever know what it around the corner! You read so many stories of women who are told they have less than 1% of conceiving and yet.. They end up with a beautiful miracle. It is obviously possible to some extent as you have your lil one to prove that!

xxxx

 

[LouiseB]

It is obviously possible to some extent as you have your lil one to prove that!

That's a really good point! It's oddd for his sperm to suddenly get worse... aren't they going to investigate him a bit more physically?

Plus it does goes to show that you can do it!

Bead suggested a antioxidant that made a huge improvement to her hubby's sperm count, i'll have to have a look for it.

 

[LouiseB]

Maritime Pine Bark extract (Pycnogenol)

Increased Bead's hubby's sperm count by so much that they went from needing ICSI to needing normal IVF - so it really is massive

 

[kirlou]

I just keep thinking that he is my miricale and im not going to get another one, dont get me wrong i love him to bits but i want another one. I dont think i can even think about fostering/adoption yet, its too early and too hard! egg donation does make it cheaper and if it was just that we could save a bit and be ok but the sperm sorting pushes it up alot and having a lo means we have no spare funds. Its just so bloody hard and so unfair!
baby bean if you ever need a nanny, im your girl lol.

 

[kirlou]

oooo ill have to look it up, thanks. no that was his 2nd test and they didnt even mention about having a lo already apart from to say we wouldnt be funded!

 

[LoopyLouize]

Do you think your hubby would be up for trying the antioxidant Louise mentioned?

x

 

[kirlou]

i think if he thought it would help he might yeah, he wants this even more now!

 

[LouiseB]

I just keep thinking that he is my miricale and im not going to get another one

In my experience there are lucky people and unlucky people.

You must be a lucky person to have had one miracle and i reckon if you get one you are just as likely to get another

 

[kirlou]

thank you, its just so hard to keep positive when ur being knocked back all the time!

 

[LouiseB]

thank you, its just so hard to keep positive when ur being knocked back all the time!

That is very true, but hopefully we are planting the seeds of optimism for them to sprout soon

 

[kirlou]

yeah, i hope they do cos otherwise ill end up in an institue driving myself bloody mad lol

 

[LouiseB]

Could you tell that i've been doing some gardening today? lol

You'll be alright Kirlou and if hubby is keen, that'll make it easier too

 

[kirlou]

Thank u all for the support, I missed u lot while I was away!

 

[ScotchEgg]

Sending you hugs, don't know what to say, but we're always here for you

 

[kirlou]

Thank u