Im baaaaack, to wait.

[russellmuscle]

Hi girls.

I suppose I have been floating on and off for a wee bit. I did have a lot going on although slowly but surely starting to get my life organised.

Im back in waiting only because I imagine I will get round to a second baby eventually.

FOB and I, have been talking alot recently and have recently decided that we would give things another go. Not official yet. Im not that ready yet. But I have been thinking it over for literally months and months, even since I had met another guy it just never felt right.

Anyway, Im back, Im here. Im more organised and grounded this time round. I have just moved flat, put alot of work into it and still alot more needing done. So once I am happy with the house, take a weekend away somewhere and start my driving Ill then consider TTC so way into next year before I even think about when. But its in my thoughts. I guess like any mummy coming to the end of her babies journey, the broodiness kicks in.

Nice to see you if I know you from last time, Nice to meet you if not.

C xxx

 

[babyslog]

Awww glad too see you and ur OH have sorted things out hun.
Exciting times ahead!! Xxx

 

[russellmuscle]

Yeah we both needed the time, I think we are more mature this time round? My main complaint last time was that I was doing everything myself. Although a period apart has tought FOB how to manage alone, being independent and not depending on me or his mum for everything, and also now respects how hard caring for a child is whilst working and maintaining a home. So I feel we did need it but time heals. Its been a year, Im not mad anymore.. Jackson loves us spending time together hes always "mummy daddy mummy daddy" all excited when we are together so, we are just tredding on.

Thank you, its exciting just finally doing things on my own terms and having them the way I want with the flat etc.

xxxx

 

[babyslog]

Glad hes learnt! My OH never did a huge amount either. Ive threatened a few times to leave because he wasn't doing enough. His mother did EVERYTHIBG for him, his brother and dad at home. So assumed I would. NUH! Sod off!!! Think just because he works FT and I only work PT that he didnt have to chip in.
Anyway, glad some time apart has helped you both!

Bless Jackson love him! Xx

 

[russellmuscle]

Hes so funny atm, I laugh always at him - so I know this isnt a loneliness thing. Im quite happy to just spend me and Jackson time, because FOB never lets me down with days etc. But obviously I prefer the idea of seeing Jackson everyday.

I work fulltime too now, so there would be alot of changes - which FOB is aware of, Ive told him I dont want things slipping back to the way they were, ie him not doing everything fast enough and me ending up doing it lol.

xxxx

 

[babyslog]

FX he keeps his end of the deal and sticks to the changes xxx

 

[Loula]

Itll be next year for me too im hoping.

Glad all things have worked out x

 

[CARNAT22]

Who knew so many of the "oldies" were hanging around here lol.

All men should live alone and learn to be self sufficient, I am sure your time apart has taught him some very valuable lessons.

Lovely to see things are coming together for you.

X

 

[russellmuscle]

Thanks sweets.

Yeah definitely. I did literally everything, it was far far too much and all that stress then leads to more stress.

We had a good chat last night. I told him I had been planning to work things out for months but obviously I was confused if I missed him or just being like in the unit.

I think now, I dont feel as stressed to meet his needs this time round aswell? I feel weve both learned lots, mainly respect. He kinda just gets on with it which Im quite happy with, I hate feeling so depended on, especially when I have a 2 year old.

xxxx