i dont know how to put this really but..
im scared.
Everything has been going smoothly, no complecations and i been feeling good (except alot of pains lately).
But this is the thing.. its not "me" to have it smoothly like this.. Its like im expectiong something to happend..
Im not a girl with luck.. so cuz everything been going so well so far im thinking.. well.. i prob still got it to come..
Im ashamed that i feel like this and i know how lucky i am really.
Maybe this is one of the reasons why.. when you walk in to my flat.. you could never see im about to having a baby.. EVERYTHING is packed away. nothing is really organised..
My mum says to me ofcourse it will be ok.. and shes prob right.. but bad things always happends to someone and no1 really thinks it will happend to them..
I really hope i have not offend anyone.. its just that its scaring me.
all i want is Noa to come to the world healthy and happy.
im scared.
Everything has been going smoothly, no complecations and i been feeling good (except alot of pains lately).
But this is the thing.. its not "me" to have it smoothly like this.. Its like im expectiong something to happend..
Im not a girl with luck.. so cuz everything been going so well so far im thinking.. well.. i prob still got it to come..
Im ashamed that i feel like this and i know how lucky i am really.
Maybe this is one of the reasons why.. when you walk in to my flat.. you could never see im about to having a baby.. EVERYTHING is packed away. nothing is really organised..
My mum says to me ofcourse it will be ok.. and shes prob right.. but bad things always happends to someone and no1 really thinks it will happend to them..
I really hope i have not offend anyone.. its just that its scaring me.
all i want is Noa to come to the world healthy and happy.