Here we go again

[Lulla Bell]

Got a few light positives over the last couple of days, then yesterday I got a nice strong line.
Followed by a fainter one today, still darker then yesterdays fmu but lighter then the smu.
This is my 5th pregnancy , all have ended in loss!
So Im in limbo again, Not sure if its a chemical or what?
I did the test today from a dribble of wee, that was very dark, it wasn't fmu but I hadn't drunk anything so would that be fmu still? as it was only about 11am.
I never get good lines with my FMU ever!
Do I take another test in a bit?

 

[xMillie]

I'd try leave it few days if you can

Hopefully it's just too early xx

 

[Lulla Bell]

just done another, the line is barely visible, There is no way I can go from the test at the bottom, to no line the following day, without it being a chemical!

I cant continue on the journey anymore
Thats 4 losses this year alone, Im so done!

 

[Pinkz]

Oh luella, what a horrible year for you. You probably know you can't say you're out till you're out. It's a horrible limbo you're in though. I'm crossing my fingers for you it's just a blip on a dodgy test and tomorrow it will be back.

 

[treetrunks]

I think at an early stage it is probably the concentration of urine, try to keep positive its early days yet xxx

 

[Lulla Bell]

All I've known is loss, I've stopped feeling sick, which is what happens every time I've lost one, I usually start to bleed the day after the nausea stops, so I guess we will see tomorrow x

 

[Pinkz]

It's so painful. Hope you get a resolution soon as waiting is the worst

 

[Hayley M]

So sorry Hun. It truly is awful. I lost 3 before falling pregnant with my rainbow. Ask you doctor for further testing . Nothing came back to indicate why I had lost the three however after scrolling through numerous forums I decided to take low dose aspirin and I am now 25 weeks pregnant. Xx

 

[Lulla Bell]

Ive had all the testing. Bloodsx3, Scansx2 My mmc was a chromosomal issue, But Ive now had two chemicals in a row.
Did you take the aspirin while TCC or just after you got your bfp? x

 

[Hayley M]

Just after I got my BFP. My friend also suffered numerous losses and had a successful pregnancy after taking low dose aspirin. It felt like my last option and I truly believe i wouldn't be where I am now if I didn't take it xx

 

[Lulla Bell]

Well the hospital have confirmed my bloods have dropped a lot,
Still no af though! Just wish it would hurry up! xx

 

[PeanutButter]

I'm sorry hun. Can't believe it's happening again
There's a test you can get i can't remember what it's called but they test some of the womb at a certain time. At Coventry uni maybe have a look into it? Xx

 

[Lulla Bell]

Thankyou I will defiantly look into it x

 

[Melly41]

Sorry to hear that lulla. Its annoying waiting for af now! I hope it arrives soon. Bizzarre as we usually want it to stay away! How do feel about it? Youre sounding very philosophical about it. Take care x

 

[Lulla Bell]

Well After this many, I just kind of wait for it to happen anyway, Obviously Im heartbroken and I've had a a lot of tears, But Im not surprised.
Ill get pregnant again, Maybe it'll stick, maybe It won't?
We've spoken about adoption, and we will go down that route if I cant take it any more.
Ill be a Mum one day... what ever route I take xx

 

[TORino]

You poor love. You've really been through it

I hope next time you have a sticky one. Keep the faith, when you do get your rainbow baby he/she will be super special. Xxx

 

[Melly41]

Well After this many, I just kind of wait for it to happen anyway, Obviously Im heartbroken and I've had a a lot of tears, But Im not surprised.
Ill get pregnant again, Maybe it'll stick, maybe It won't?
We've spoken about adoption, and we will go down that route if I cant take it any more.
Ill be a Mum one day... what ever route I take xx

Youll make a great mum and you will be one day. I still reckon youll get a sticky one soon. I hope you dont have to wait very long x

 

[Lulla Bell]

Thankyou Ladies, I really appreciate it.
Af arrived today, which I'm relieved about, I thought i would be super late and it would mess up my cycles!
Im away next month a week after my fertile days, so we dreading things getting put back and missing out on a cycle. XXX

 

[Melly41]

At least its arrived and you know where you are. If you are away a week after fertile days then this could be a good thing. You can dtd as much as you can before you go. Being away will make the tww a bit easier for you as youll be distracted with being away.....hopefully! X

 

[Lulla Bell]

That's what I'm thinking. I'm away with work too.
Supporting two girls on holiday so I'll have loads to distract me x