OMG, I had a total meltdown last night .. convinced myself that OH didnt love me or want to give me a cuddle; then watched this stupid programme about women who drink while pregnant and made myself feel guilty because I drank before I found out I was having LO and have had half a glass of champagne at Xmas! Final showdown occurred when I got huffy because I needed to do the washing up and OH told me I was being silly this then was like red rag to a bull, I went totally ballistic, kicked the bin in the kitchen and stormed out of the house, only to realise that I had my door keys and nothing else (not even a coat and I was in flip flops!). So went and sat in the car for a bit until I calmed down, then drove around randomly for ages until I felt better. Now feel like a bit of a brat for behaving like that youd think at 30 that I would have got over temper tantrums. This pregnancy thing is a bit weird sometimes . feel quite guilty and teary about it all today.