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[tracey 2]

Hi guys dont really know why im writing this but well.

Im having a goodish day today not been too bad apart from feeling ill, think iv got a stomach bug, cant keep anything down for a week now and im so shattered also cant stop drinking- weird or what! Anyway enough about that.

I went to the docs on fri regarding my medication, he was really nice we had a chat about how i felt about going back on them for a short term thing over the next few weeks to get over these few weeks. He has given me more diazapan (sp) for severve panick attacks if i really need it. Im now back on a low dose of anti - depressants and we are going to review it in about 3-4 months time, he said if i have any probs with it then iv gotta go back.

Im getting referred back to the counsellor i saw last year which prob wont be for a couple of weeks but it might be sooner, it depends. Hopefully that will help a bit.

Sorry for the long post guys, and i hope everyone else is ok and im sending for everyone.

Take care x x

 

[claire81]

Hi Tracey

Just wanted to send my love and tell you that you are in my thoughts.

I hope you get a quich referal for the counselling and i sincerely hope it helps you. You will never get over the loss of your baby but hopefully you will see a light at the end of the tunnel. Please read the post on babyloss awareness day, and i hope this helps too. i will be lighting 2 candles in memory of my 2 little nieces and im sure they are looking after your little one in heaven.

Claire x

 

[Andrianne]

Hi Tracey

Never replied to your posts but I have read them all and I just want to say how brilliant I think it is that you're still around rooting for everyone and giving them your support.

I hope your meds and counselling will help you. You're young and have your whole life ahead of you, am sure you hear that a lot but it's true! So good for you for taking care of yourself, you want to be happy again and that's very important. Many people get trapped in depression and actually find it comfortable feeling this way because it's something familiar. Anything unknown (eg being healthy and feeling good about oneself) can be scary.

I'm really sorry about your loss, i remember how much you wanted it as opposed to your parents and your bf. I'm sorry it turned out this way. Are you still with your bf? Have your relationship with your parents improved? You don't have to aswer if you don't want to

Wishing you well

xxx

 

[fynemum]

Hi Tracey,
I am happy that you managed to talk to the doctor and more than that he talked with you.
I am also happy that you are having a better day today, I shall be lighting my candles tonight and not only thinking of my angels but sending you a hug and thinking of us all and the little ones we have all lost.
Someone somewhere said "angels never die" We have such loved and loving angels, we owe it to them to live and be strong, but we need the love and help of others to travel that path.
This is a big step forward for you, i am proud to know you and i do consider you a friend as you have been Strength to me at my low points. you and others help me on my path. Thank you Tracey. gey well. Yvonne xx

 

[Rachie]

Hey Hun

Have sent you a PM but wanted to say you are doing so well, and you've been so great for me even though you're going through so much yourself, you're a really speacial person. Good things will happen XX

 

[tracey 2]

thank you so much guys you have me in tears now. I dont know why iv just never ever had this kinda support before.

Andrianne- thank you. im not with my boyfriend anymore i still cant believe what he has done, im better off without him at the moment. Getting there with my parents not brilliant but well.

Claire81,Fynemum and rachie- Also thank you guys your support has been fantastic as well dont know what i would have done without you all. Im here for everyone just like your all here for me, its something no oneshould ever go through but we do.

Here are hugs for everyone to hopefully find some strenght and comfort over the next few weeks, months, etc.

Take care x x

 

[Emmylou]

Hey tracey - seem to have missed this post over the last couple of days when I've been rooting round....glad to hear things are feeling a bit better for you hun, I hope you can continue to be strong

 

[rach]

hi hun just wanted to send you a hug and let you know im thinking of you xxxxxxxx