I can relate, we have been trying over 2 years now and waiting for appointment for recurrent MC clinic. I've started to think its just not going to happen now, keep getting hopes up every month and buying loads of tests but am regularly disappointed, either with a chemical, early Mc or just plain AF.
So last month I really thought I'd done it, got nice strong lines and positive digital 10dpo, took AC and aspirin, hadn't touched any alcohol for months, taken vitamin supplements and eaten well etc, but then even before I was due AF started spotting and ended up with a really heavy 5 day bleed with clots.
So really very fed up with it.
We missed my ov day this cycle so last night I got the wine out!
I think it takes such a toll on us, I totally get how your feeling, everyone around seems to have just had babies or they're happily sporting neat little bumps out in the sunshine!
If I had the money I would take the ivf route already but we have basic jobs and outgoings and older children on both sides to support.
So all I can say is 'your not alone' there's many of us stuck in this limbo. Xx