Flick

[reallyoldmum]

I really hope this Christmas has been ok for you x x x x x

 

[Flick]

Thankyou for thinking of me at this time ..... it's hard, very hard (I am not coping too well ) One moment I am OK and the next I am in floods of tears.

I know I am not alone though and every time I log on to this forum my heart goes out to that unlucky person who is going to that awful place that both you and I are in.

I know I will never be blessed with a child as it would just be too dangerous to my health, it would mean a major operation and the risks are too great given my age, medical condition etc. but it is difficult to get my head round the fact

How are you ROM? How are you coping? My thoughts are with you

 

[Steelgoddess]

Im so sorry hon, thats heart breaking

 

[Petra]

Ah Flick, I am so sorry to hear that.

I remember you replying to my earlier posts. You and Sharne comforted me a lot. Sorry I can not do more for you, just to send you

 

[Flick]

Thanks for your good wishes ladies, it is really good to know you are all here for me. I have to focus on what I have got and not what I have lost (but never forgotten )

My DH says he can cope with the loss but coping with me is another matter

 

[CB23]

Flick I'm so sorry

 

[reallyoldmum]

I know what you mean about your OH Flick - Dave just gets on with it - he is trying hard to understand me I think but as he's not the one going through the physical pain and bleeding its so hard for them.

I suppose it takes time - have you decided against the operation then? There are a few posts on FF about the same thing you have - I had never heard of it before.

I have another scan on the 8th Jan - it is after this that they will decide whether I need surgery to remove what is left - if they do operate they have prepared us that I will have to have my uterus removed they think.... I no it doesnt sound rational but although I am terrified to go through what we have been again I'm not ready to say never yet and if that is the outcome it is so final..... I'm up on minute and down the next and it being Christmas seems to make it so much worse but we have decided we are going to spend New Years Eve at a friends house, just about 15 of us so it will be quiet compared to what we usually do and I feel much better about that - Cant get my head around welcoming in a new year with so much of this years crap unresolved!!

Be kind and gentle with yourself Flick I never forget there are lots of people out there thinking about you x x x x

 

[xJodieLoux]

I don't think there is anything I could say that would comfort you, but I just want you to know that I am thinking of you

 

[trixipaws]

im so sorry sweety

 

[Flick]

I know what you mean about your OH Flick - Dave just gets on with it - he is trying hard to understand me I think but as he's not the one going through the physical pain and bleeding its so hard for them.

I suppose it takes time - have you decided against the operation then? There are a few posts on FF about the same thing you have - I had never heard of it before.

I have another scan on the 8th Jan - it is after this that they will decide whether I need surgery to remove what is left - if they do operate they have prepared us that I will have to have my uterus removed they think.... I no it doesnt sound rational but although I am terrified to go through what we have been again I'm not ready to say never yet and if that is the outcome it is so final..... I'm up on minute and down the next and it being Christmas seems to make it so much worse but we have decided we are going to spend New Years Eve at a friends house, just about 15 of us so it will be quiet compared to what we usually do and I feel much better about that - Cant get my head around welcoming in a new year with so much of this years crap unresolved!!

Be kind and gentle with yourself Flick I never forget there are lots of people out there thinking about you x x x x

To be honest, I have been too upset both at home and in the hospital to take in what was being said to me about the operation etc. but for what my DH said when he talked to the doctors the outlook is pretty bleak even if they could repair my womb - like you, I'm terrified of saying "that's it"

Oh, to be 10 years younger

 

[Steelgoddess]

Its just not fair

 

[reallyoldmum]

I know what you mean about having a lot to take in at the moment. I have made an appointment with my GP, the one that I like and trust for the 9th January - the day after our next scan - I am taking a list of questions and am not leaving until I get some answers as to why they didnt pick up something sooner when I was telling them something was not right......

I know your situation is different but perhaps you could make an appointment to just see exactly what the surgery is etc. I read on FF of one lady who said that her womb had a layer of muscle through it and she had that removed but she callled it seperate uterus - from what she said the reason it was difficult to carry a baby to full term is that it was hard to implant into muscle????

Anyway its early days yet to make big decisions - at least thats how I feel - be gentle with yourself