First I want to appologise for silly rant and feeling sorry for myself, but think your the only ones who will understand! I have had alot of hormone problems over last couple of years giving me lots of pregnancy symptoms and lots of times wondering if was pregnant once where doc said to behave like I was pregnant as she was fairly certain I was but perhaps it was too early for tests to show this went on for a month then they told me it looked like I had been pregnant but wasnt anymore so to move on which at times has been quite difficult. I haven't been trying for a baby and cant at moment but I can't think of anything else practicality wise we need to wait until we are married and my loans paid off and we're more sorted moneywise which we've agreed on, but everyone around me is getting pregnant or trying for a baby and am finding it difficult especially when they arnt being responsible on money side of things etc. My Sister has just had a baby, my Dad's wife is pregnant (planned dispite him having to go bankrupt when they found out about baby!) my sister started trying for a baby when she found out my sister was pregnant dispite having no money, being homeless and doing alot of drugs, now a friend has said they are trying for a baby and a work college has just announced his girlfriends pregnant, Im trying to think of other things but all these babies everywhere make it impossible (and being slightly addicted to this site probably doesnt help but theres so many lovely girls on here that have given me good advice cant help keep popping back and checking how your all doing!) I have this feeling that my sister is going to announce shes pregnant at xmas and I just know Im going to find that the hardest cause she is alot younger then me and not in a reasonable possition to have a baby healthwise moneywise or emotionally she's not very good at looking after herself! Sorry again, I know its a silly rant and doesnt really belong here cause not TTC (but if OH agreed would start tomorrow!) its 7 weeks since I had a proper period and got bfn yest which I think has triggered me feeling so down! Good luck to all you ttc especially the long termers I have been quietly keeping my fingers crossed for all you guys and look forward to reading about your xmas bfps!!!!!