Oh my goodness Cos I haven't been reading many threads over the last week so I missed your sad news. I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope you are managing a few bits to eat and drink. Take time as much as you can for you, hard I know when there are children to look after, but do try. Cry as much as you want, crying is a good way of healing although your sadness will be with you it will hopefully help.
Know that you're not alone and there are always ladies here to offer a shoulder to cry on.
Big cuddles and love.xxxxx