I have not been on here for a while so do not know any background to this at all, type of infection et. I just wanted to say that my thoughts are with you and yoru family but also tell you that a lady i know who has recently given birth to a full term baby girl who unbeknown to her had casught a virus passed from mum - The baby was small and they feared the worse, initially they did not think she would make it then it was a fear about her being a blind and deaf child, she was in neo natal unit for 6 weeks and has been let home and it appears she is perfectly healthy. So i suppose what im saying is , sometime despite the worst possible prognosis, the most damning fears and anxieties babies are always pulling through and amazng us!
I truly hope your little one is fine and well and that you find the strength right now to get through such a tough period. xxxxx