Depression support thread

[Toonlass]

Oh no pinky! I hope they come soon for you sounds like a nightmare xx

 

[pinkymum]

Oh no pinky! I hope they come soon for you sounds like a nightmare xx

I think I'm going to cry or scream toon! My back and tummy are getting sore and I'm so cold! Wish they would hurry up!
How's you?

 

[ria__x]

i love your avatar Toon!

 

[pinkymum]

Hi ladies,
How are you all today? I'm fine after my little freak out the other day with the furniture lol. They loaded the van really quick, although my corner sofa was hard for them to get out! Once it was done I was fine.

Hope you are all doing ok!

*hugs*

 

[ria__x]

i'm ok thankyou pinky! and glad to hear you are too

i was meant to go out lastnight, which was a bit out of my routine, and i felt pressured so when i got home i just had a big panic attack and was really angry with myself but me and OH talked about it all and i calmed down (his mate was here lastnight too but he's used to me freaking out..)

but i feel a lot more positive today after a nice bath lastnight with candles and an okay-ish sleep. Riley was constipated though so couldn't sleep much bless him! xxxx

 

[adele88]

hi all. I spoke to the health visitor recently about how i have been feeling as i have been feeling really anxious recently. She got me an appointment with the doctor to speak to him and have some treatment. The doctor prescribed me citalopram which is an antidepressant. I wasnt really sure about taking this as im not really depressed actually im feeling brilliant apart from this anxious feeling in my stomach that i cant get rid of. Anyway I took one tablet i felt abso terrible i felt like i was on drugs or something i was feeling sick and dizzy and had goosepimples on my arms and legs also couldnt sleep all night my head was just going round and round. It took roughly 2 days for the side effects of this ONE tablet to wear off i couldnt believe it for the 2 days all i done was sleep constantly. So i decided if one tablet can do this much to you how the hell do you feel after taking the tablets everyday for about 6 month. I imagine you would feel awful and would struggle to be without the tablets. I also googled the tablet that i was giving and have heard some horror stories which has convinced me even more not to take them.

What I have decided is since my problem is really just anxiety and im not depressed i could help myself. I know if you have trouble with anxiety it some sort of hormone imbalance and low serotonin levels so I figured if i start going to the gym swimming and eating a healthy diet i could help myself. What's everyone's opinions will my anxiety evenually go away as its just down to sudden changes in my life ? xx

 

[titch]

that sounds like a horrible reaction to the drugs, the last thing you needed!!! Sometimes I think antidepressants are prescribed too quickly. I think a lot of people would rather get help to feel better without them, although Im sure they have their place in some cases.

Maybe some relaxation CDs might help? get a massage or a bit of pampering? xx

 

[adele88]

yeah i think i will give that a try too didnt even think of massage. thanks.

how did you get on did you speak to your health visitor and what did she say?xx

 

[titch]

I did speak to her, I cried too knew I would as soon as I started talking. Shes coming tomorrow. She thinks that Im still feeling a bit traumatised, I dont think she thinks I have depression even tho I scored 14 on the scale. I dunno why it was less, I suppose I was a bit self conscious about it.

We'll see what she says tomorrow. I think I kept her here so long she had to arrange to come back another day.

 

[Elfs Mummy]

Hows everything going Tiny ?? xx

 

[adele88]

think i killed this thread

 

[Toonlass]

Course you didn't chick! I haven't been on much because I've had loads happening at home. How is everybody? Xx

 

[Elfs Mummy]

You didn't kill it I did Im in my pj's for the third day running, i need to meet people !! I have no friends here and i think im going crazy. Hows everyone else ?? Still drunk Toon ?? xx

 

[*Hope*]

oh i wish i had found this sooner. only read page 1 so far but about to read as much as i can whilst annabelle naps.

I had everything at school. i was the popular one and loved my social life as well as doing pretty well accdemic wise. i was quite spoilt by my family. although my mum and dad divorced and my mum used to make me feel guilty for seeing my dad / talking about my dad!

THEN at around 20 ish i slowly but surely isolated myself from everyone, i have no idea why!! i cheated on my perfect bf. lost all my friends due to depression and me not bothering with them, i had an eating disorder (anorexia but mainly bullimia).

my mum is an alcoholic and my brother has controlled schitzophrenia (he lives a great normal now life due to his medication) my bro was sectioned. my mum was in denial for most of my teens and young adult life. until recently when she admitted it and is going into rehab next week (massive relief).

whenever i am sad or low (or break up from yet another relationship) i starve myself for days or weeks or before pregnancy i would make myself sick a LOT. sometimes up to 10 times a day.

i get suicidal thoughts when im reeally down too. i have such low confidence when talking to people. and most of the time i prefer to be on my own with just my baby and my dog.

the father of my baby is the opposite of who i expected myself to be with. and everyone else is SO disappointed in me for falling in love with him. we seperated for babies sake but i still love him so much and dont think i will ever want to be with anyone else. he is from a bad family, doesnt have anyone at all, and lives for me. but is quite depressed and angry himself sometimes too. i have no idea why i love him so much. but i know i do. when we are good it is amazing and i guess im addicted to that. plus only he would love annabelle the way i do.

i really feel for everyone and am here if anyone wants to talk x

 

[*Hope*]

Well done for sharing! Sometimes it's hard admitting your problems, I worry that people will think I'm a psycho lol. I've been given many 'labels' such as acute anxiety disorder, bipolar, borderline personality dissorder, OCD and even anger issues. I reckon I'll never get better but I hope that one day I'll get the right mix of happy pills to keep me right xx

Oh Toon i think mine is BPD too!! I have had counselling beofore and she suggested it and everything i have read sounds like me. isnt it awful. would love to chat about it. hope your having a good day today and the bad days lessen. please try and get to the doctors for the prescription. it will be worth it afterwards xxx

 

[Elfs Mummy]

Really gkad you found this thread Hope and are able to share your story, It must be such a relief that your mum is finaly getting help. Im very similar alot of the time i would rather be alone. Have you spoken to someone about starving yourself when your low ? I used to do that until getting pregnant and now all i can think about is being on my own with baby and my cats.

You can't help who you fall in love with, after everything i think im still in love with my ex however i hate him at the same time for the way he hates my unborn little girl.

If you ever need to rant/ talk im happy to listen xx

 

[*Hope*]

Bleurghhh!! Thats all i have to say about my day so far
Hope everyone is ok Why is it when i am down i just want to go out and spend money on stuff i don't need or particularly want!! xx

I am exactly the same as this!!!! i spend so much money on things i dont really need and it makes me feel better.

my mum blames me for her drink problme and the other day an ambulance was called because she hadnt eaten for 3 days and was in bed at 4pm after a bottle of neat vodka and couldnt walk. i went staright home and ordered me, annabelle and my dog 3 really expensive un neccessary things!!! x

 

[*Hope*]

Really gkad you found this thread Hope and are able to share your story, It must be such a relief that your mum is finaly getting help. Im very similar alot of the time i would rather be alone. Have you spoken to someone about starving yourself when your low ? I used to do that until getting pregnant and now all i can think about is being on my own with baby and my cats.

You can't help who you fall in love with, after everything i think im still in love with my ex however i hate him at the same time for the way he hates my unborn little girl.

If you ever need to rant/ talk im happy to listen xx

thankyou. i sometimes think i only connect with animals and babies!?!

i havent really spoken to anyone about it. i feel like a fraud somehow because i have never gone down to a 'dangerous' weight.

 

[Elfs Mummy]

It's still dangerous if that makes sense, My best friend had Bulimia and was told that it would in the end kill her even if she didnt get down to a dangerous weight. Have you ever gone through any counselling ??

And animals and babies are soo much cooler than adults xx

 

[*Hope*]

i had 3 sessions of counselling which was when she suggested BPD. But ither than that literally all she did was look at her watch or subtly slag my OH half off like everyone else does. that doesnt help. i know hes a dick a lot of the time but that doesnt help me with wanting to be with him or loving him.

my mum made me go to the docs once because i was making myself sick a lot. but he didnt really give a damn!?

a few weeks back i was literlally eating a chicken breast a day and lost loads of weight. and now annabelles dad is being so nice to me i am binge eating and cant stop. its very messed up.

the one thing i put everything i have into is annabelle. i almost feel numb to everything. like my mum is seriously ill, my brother isnt talking to me, my OH threatens suicide when i split up with him, and lots of other stuff, and i feel numb to it. i dont cry. i block it all out. its like all i care about is annabelle and my dog.

god sorry to be so morbid and i have probably made everyone feel worse!!