Hi hon,
I am sorry to hear about your loss.
I have had 4 now and I found that talking to someone really helped me cope and deal with what had happened.
My last one was only 2 weeks ago and it still hurts so bad but I am seeing a Health Visitor once a week and I have started a journal about all 4 of my mc's and how I am feeling/dealing with them day to day which I also find helps a lot. It is something private that I can keep to myself and just read it when I want it.
I hope you find peace hon but the pain never truly goes away and you will never, ever forget.
Lee-Ann xx