Confused and emotional with ivf

[Tina14]

Hiya,

I’ve not posted for sometime in this forum. I guess after my miscarriage two years ago, I found it better to just shut off for a while.
However I remember how supportive I found this place! Hence my post today....

So, in a nutshell, we’ve been struggling to conceive and have been under the gynea clinic to figure out why - my endometriosis had returned and both tubes were blocked (managed to unblock one).
So we have now been referred and accepted for two cycles of ivf. When I went for my scan and bloods, they advised me that I have endometriosis (I know this) and also polycycstic ovaries (did not know this). They also said that my egg count bloods were off the scale - that I was producing a high level of eggs each month and they don’t know why I can’t conceive.

So - they said there were two different methods of ivf, depending on what was wrong and now because I’m showing three different things - they didn’t know what to do. Anyway they said they would take it to their MDT and write tome. I’ve chased this information twice and still don’t know what’s going to happen now.

This month, we’ve dtd like mad and I was certain I was displaying early symptoms of pregnancy (twinges, metallic taste) and I’ve done a test and it’s negative. Af due any day now.
I just feel utterly crap - I was so wanting it to work this month. Doesn’t help that I’m in the middle of doing night shifts, so they mess with my emotions.

I know I’m not the only one feeling like this - and that it’s just so incredibly hard for everyone. I’m just feeling a little more sensitive than normal today and just needed to get it out there. If that makes sense?
I’m so nervous about starting ivf....

 

[chattychar1990]

Hiya,

I’ve not posted for sometime in this forum. I guess after my miscarriage two years ago, I found it better to just shut off for a while.
However I remember how supportive I found this place! Hence my post today....

So, in a nutshell, we’ve been struggling to conceive and have been under the gynea clinic to figure out why - my endometriosis had returned and both tubes were blocked (managed to unblock one).
So we have now been referred and accepted for two cycles of ivf. When I went for my scan and bloods, they advised me that I have endometriosis (I know this) and also polycycstic ovaries (did not know this). They also said that my egg count bloods were off the scale - that I was producing a high level of eggs each month and they don’t know why I can’t conceive.

So - they said there were two different methods of ivf, depending on what was wrong and now because I’m showing three different things - they didn’t know what to do. Anyway they said they would take it to their MDT and write tome. I’ve chased this information twice and still don’t know what’s going to happen now.

This month, we’ve dtd like mad and I was certain I was displaying early symptoms of pregnancy (twinges, metallic taste) and I’ve done a test and it’s negative. Af due any day now.
I just feel utterly crap - I was so wanting it to work this month. Doesn’t help that I’m in the middle of doing night shifts, so they mess with my emotions.

I know I’m not the only one feeling like this - and that it’s just so incredibly hard for everyone. I’m just feeling a little more sensitive than normal today and just needed to get it out there. If that makes sense?
I’m so nervous about starting ivf....

Hey hun - didnt want to read and run so thought i would send you lots of baby dust
It doesn't mean because you got 1 bfn you are not pregnant, if AF doesn't arrive on time then you could still well be in with a chance. Especially with the symptoms you have had.

Fingers crossed you do get your bfp and you don't have to go through the ivf route but even if you do good luck with it hun xx

 

[Tina14]

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Hey hun - didnt want to read and run so thought i would send you lots of baby dust
It doesn't mean because you got 1 bfn you are not pregnant, if AF doesn't arrive on time then you could still well be in with a chance. Especially with the symptoms you have had.

Fingers crossed you do get your bfp and you don't have to go through the ivf route but even if you do good luck with it hun xx[/QUOTE]


Thank you.... it’s just hard seeing that negative test - especially when it was a clear blue one!
Like I said - I think I’m more emotional than normal because I’m working nights and they never agree with me. Head all over the place!
Thank you for the baby dust!

 

[Pebbles11]

You sound a bit like me putting pressure on yourself. I have first appointment at fertility clinic in December and I’m so hoping to conceive on our own before then but realised (as always) I’m putting that pressure on myself which I’m sure doesn’t help. Be kind to yourself.
You are not out unless af shows x

 

[Tina14]

You sound a bit like me putting pressure on yourself. I have first appointment at fertility clinic in December and I’m so hoping to conceive on our own before then but realised (as always) I’m putting that pressure on myself which I’m sure doesn’t help. Be kind to yourself.
You are not out unless af shows x

Ah thank you! You know...,I’m in the middle of my stint of night shifts, so that’s not helping my emotions. Af did come - so I’ve been super hormonal, hence why I took to here to get it all out. It did help though!

I hadn’t heard anything from my clinic and each time I was phoning, I was getting cut off or someone didn’t know answers.....so frustrating. But I finally got through to someone this morning and they explained that they are so busy.
Which, gives us another month to try and conceive on our own - again, more pressure!!
You’re very. Right - be kind to ourselves..... good luck with your journey xx

 

[isabella80]

Hi OP,
I'm new here but I feel you so much atm. I have been diagnosed with chocolate cysts myself and at 38 I just feel so desperate to finally have my own baby!! I feel so frustrated. My husband's got fertility issues of his own and we are determined to go down the IVF route... just don't know where yet... I've been looking at clinics abroad and have been in touch with several over the last months. I will book an appointment with one in january, but I so wish I could get a BFP by then...
Anyways, like it's been said, let's try to be kinder to ourselves and not pressurise ourselves that much. Wishing you the best of luck xx