I decided to start looking for some sort of childcare for when I go back to uni in September but its making me feel really upset, I'm feeling sick at the thought of leaving him. I didn't expect to feel like this as I didn't when I went back to work after having my DD. I can't even bear to look anymore but know I probably need to. How on earth do you find somewhere or someone you like and trust who has the same parenting outlook as you? Plus I won't know my time table until I go back and with my hubby working off shore he will be home a lot. I was thinking maybe a nanny would suit me better, anyone ever had a nanny?