4DPO and looking for distractions

I believe that I am 4DPO (the line wasnt really really dark but as dark as I have ever had it before) and I am trying not to symptom spot but its hard work! I dont really think i am lucky enough to actually be pregnant but I also know there is unlikely to be any prominent symptoms at this stage of the game.

It is almost definitely AF coming, I have cramps / pains in my ovary, bad backache (although I do have a back problem but this is the worst its been in a while), feeling wet and stomach symptoms in general- a little nausea, diarrhea, strange feeling in the bottom of my stomach and aversion to some foods. This is not like me at all, I love food but my friend shared pictures of some 'lovely' cakes but they made me want to gag- perhaps I am just ill!

Every symptom has an explanation, typically AF shaped explanation so I need something to focus on. I am not getting my hopes up at all so here I am looking for distractions

 

I do I love reading, what sort of books do you like? I am into horror/thrillers etc

At the moment I have just discovered series 2 of Married at First Sight so I am immersing myself in that right now! My husband is working tonight so I will be able to fit some more in lol. Taking my mum shopping in the morning too

Next cycle I will totally do away with BBT, OPKs, everything other than BDing probably every other day. I am sick of line spotting on OPKs and worrying is it def a neg or do I just not get a dark line or why has the line that was developing gone? I need to take that pressure off myself and just test a few days later than Ovia tells me to xxx

 

I have never had a proper really dark line, I get a progressively darker line then it goes back to nothing so I am taking that as my positive. Either way I have to stop doing that to myself its upsetting me. I will leave it until my husband and I are both off work so that will be the end of the month- if I can I want to hold out until CD17 to test but I am assuming AF will get me first

I dont really read romance books, 50 shades was the closest thing to that! I like things about serial killers so I have a lot of books about them (can you tell my most recent course was forensic criminology?!) xx

 

I think I am putting on my rose tinted glasses and living in denial about ovulating. I am terrified deep down that because I have never got a dark dark line it means that I dont ovulate and if thats true the consultant has already said he is not prepared to give me any medication without me getting my BMI right down significantly (thats just under 8 stone I would have to lose). I am so scared and emotional right now

Ha yeah true! I am a total geek and after I finished uni I took loads of courses that interested me. I took that one because I have always had an interest in serial killers, more than any other area of crime. I have watched loads of things about it and a whole book shelf full of real case studies etc! xxx

 

What are you reading? Always take suggestions for more to read... not that I have more space for books so its gone onto my kindle app!~ Thank you that has cheered me up

 

Really? You have made my night!! I am so happy right now xxx

 

I found it on All4 its on the main page and there is series 3 already started too! I studied psychology too and really enjoyed the first series, so good that 2 of the couples are still together sadly one had a recent mc

We can 2WW together lol Im saying mine is 4dpo at a guess so we can help each other through! xx

 

That is a relief, have you got any babies or are you pregnant at the moment? Think I am looking for some hope to cling to. Its so strange that on here we can ask that question that we would never ask in real life x

 

I've been having cramping uncomfortable pains for the last 2 days with backache and last night/this morning there is a little spotting. Guess AF is on her way. Cd34 so not entirely unexpected just a shame

 

2ww is crap! I've never used glow is it good? I've never spotted before af but now I spend half my life spottin. I do not approve! Hopefully this will be your months. Do watch it, im on episode 3 I think its good to see how much it all changed in a short space of time xxxx

 

Yeah I'm gutted. Hoping against hope its nothing much but who am I kidding. It's probably gonna be a blood bath as usual. Im.Thinking about changing my cycle length last couple have been less than 39 so might make a dif xxx