I was totally the same ... It's perfectly natural to fear the unknown, all I cam say is... Yes it's painful and yes it's scary bit truly once the baby is out you seem to forget all about it and the emotions of having the little one take over and you just know it was all worth it... Try not to read too far ahead and deal with things as they come, keep yourself fit & healthy and try to keep a positive mental attitude it will work wonders ( I didn't do any of these lol and my story is another story- but next time will take my own advice) xx