im not going to turn this in to a sad or bad post and that its all over etc i mean yeah it is but its a positive post in a way as well.
as some of you know me and steve have recently been going through a rough patch a lot has been happening and with my hormones and other things we been arguing more and more last 2 weeks and i dont think either of us can take much more of it all and its not fair on joshua having all this worry and im stressed enough as it is,
so we have called everything off as much as it hurts me to say it and im crying as i type this i still do love him in a way but not how i used to, to much has got inbetween us, i think it happens to even the best of couples
i need to focus on getting myself though the rest of this pregnancy and having my little man here with me.
both of us are saying things to each other and hurting eachother with words and its a 2 way thing and we have both talked about this so much this last week or so and this is it for now but he is still here for me and joshua and i wouldnt have it any other way
he is joshuas dad and i want him to be apart of his life even if we arent together no more, and he will be with me for scans and when he is here and we know we will remain good friends after everything and there is no way we have taken this decision lightly god its been nights of crying and shouting and talking and cuddling there is no spark there no more.
maybe once joshua is here and when he is bit older and maybe if things change or settle down we may try again but thats me talking well in advance and i dont even know if i even want that at all or what i want really.
so its not a totally sad post but an ok post that things are ok just focusing on both of us an individuals and for joshua sake more than anything, he will still have a mummy and daddy who love him to peices
as some of you know me and steve have recently been going through a rough patch a lot has been happening and with my hormones and other things we been arguing more and more last 2 weeks and i dont think either of us can take much more of it all and its not fair on joshua having all this worry and im stressed enough as it is,
so we have called everything off as much as it hurts me to say it and im crying as i type this i still do love him in a way but not how i used to, to much has got inbetween us, i think it happens to even the best of couples
i need to focus on getting myself though the rest of this pregnancy and having my little man here with me.both of us are saying things to each other and hurting eachother with words and its a 2 way thing and we have both talked about this so much this last week or so and this is it for now but he is still here for me and joshua and i wouldnt have it any other way
he is joshuas dad and i want him to be apart of his life even if we arent together no more, and he will be with me for scans and when he is here and we know we will remain good friends after everything and there is no way we have taken this decision lightly god its been nights of crying and shouting and talking and cuddling there is no spark there no more.
maybe once joshua is here and when he is bit older and maybe if things change or settle down we may try again but thats me talking well in advance and i dont even know if i even want that at all or what i want really.
so its not a totally sad post but an ok post that things are ok just focusing on both of us an individuals and for joshua sake more than anything, he will still have a mummy and daddy who love him to peices
!! You are totally right though, you must put yourself and Joshua 1st, he is the most important (little) man in your life, you will look after him and love him like nothing else - I know you will make an excelent mummy!
