Well as you know i broke up with Haydens dad at the end of june and although initially it was to have some space and then talk about stuff etc he then said he was not willing to try again..but i've always felt in some kind of limbo because it didn't feel over to me. Anyway just thought i'd write down whats going on for me more than anything.
I was very upset and threw myself into doing lots of stuff with Hayden and my friends, the last month and a bit i have never phoned or texted Stewart unless to reply to him re seeing Hayden etc..i found it hard to get on with him as a mate at first as it was hurtful but swallowed my feelings for little mans sake and was very nice and civil- last few weeks we have been out a couple of times..we didn't drag up all the past etc we just had a laugh and i think we sort of rediscovered a spark that had been lost in our daily routine. We have been really close and we had a good talk earlier on about a few things.i'm not saying we are getting back together but we both feel there is something still there between us. I know that doesn't mean we should be together as sometimes you can still have feelings for someone and it still wouldn't work out...I think we are going to carry on living apart and take things really slowly and see how it goes, neither of us wants to just jump back in to how we were as nothing would change and we would be back to square one..not sure what will happen in the future we just know we really miss each other and we are both still in love with each other so we will see how it goes i guess. At least now he has said he is still in love with me and wants to work things out but in a practical way not just jump straight back in and fingers crossed its ok or anything. I feel the same way i wouldn't want him to just move back in now..too much has happened and i am not just going to take him back. anyway thanks for reading/listening just needed to write it down and make sense of my feelings.
I was very upset and threw myself into doing lots of stuff with Hayden and my friends, the last month and a bit i have never phoned or texted Stewart unless to reply to him re seeing Hayden etc..i found it hard to get on with him as a mate at first as it was hurtful but swallowed my feelings for little mans sake and was very nice and civil- last few weeks we have been out a couple of times..we didn't drag up all the past etc we just had a laugh and i think we sort of rediscovered a spark that had been lost in our daily routine. We have been really close and we had a good talk earlier on about a few things.i'm not saying we are getting back together but we both feel there is something still there between us. I know that doesn't mean we should be together as sometimes you can still have feelings for someone and it still wouldn't work out...I think we are going to carry on living apart and take things really slowly and see how it goes, neither of us wants to just jump back in to how we were as nothing would change and we would be back to square one..not sure what will happen in the future we just know we really miss each other and we are both still in love with each other so we will see how it goes i guess. At least now he has said he is still in love with me and wants to work things out but in a practical way not just jump straight back in and fingers crossed its ok or anything. I feel the same way i wouldn't want him to just move back in now..too much has happened and i am not just going to take him back. anyway thanks for reading/listening just needed to write it down and make sense of my feelings.