I am now nearly 9 weeks pregnant after 3 losses and as I approach 9 weeks I'm feeling very anxious. My second loss was at 9 weeks and it broke me in a way I didn't think possible. I'm starting to really dread going to the toilet in case the same thing happens. I can remember it like it was yesterday. My partner is at work on Saturday and it's exactly the same scenario as when it happened last time. I keep seeing one magpie too (one for sorrow) which is also not making me feel any better. I'm really superstitious. My sickness has subsided now and my boobs are not really sore anymore. I just feeling like it's happened again. I just don't feel pregnant anymore. How do you all keep sane with pregnancy after loss?