Hi all well i dont know why im even putting this because i can never really feel or understand what most of you may have been through but here goes 5 years ago now i found out that i was pregnant and i admit that i was a complete shock as i was so young at the time but in someways i was happy about it and really wanted to go through with the pregnancy but who i was with at the time his parents were like really happy one moment as were my parents and then all of a sudden everything seemed to change he was the same aswell telling me one thing and saying another after both parent had been in discussion one evening they all (inc my ex) decided that it was best for me to terminate the pregnancy and that was the end of it i had absolutley no say in the matter. After i had app etc with the docs the day came around for me to go and have the termination and secretley i was in bits i tryed so hard to hide my upset at this but all to soon before i knew it the precious life i had growing inside me was gone and that was it. for days, weeks after this i couldnt forgive them for what they made me do and really at the end of the day im sure thats what put an end to our relationship. but i often sit here and think on each anniversary of what would have been his or hers birthday about what could have been. also thinking today he or she would have been 5yrs old this september. i always think of myself as having 3 pregnancy's that one being the first but then i never got the chance to se what things would have turned out to be like. ( But all in all now i have 2 beautiful children and an adoring o/h but i do often think about this and what it could have been like but there again that i'l never know). Sorry to bore you all there as im sure you dont really want to be listening to me go on about that now. Thanks for listening anyway