Hi girls,
I feel I have to come on here and let all this out and hopefully you are going to support me..I have been holding this in for a while (obviously my family know) but I think its about time I could chat about it to you guys, my crew!!
Everyone is scared, nervous etc of childbirth. But the past month I have been having panic attacks every day, not being able to leave the house they have got so very bad. Im feeling ill and stressed and so down and all I do is cry regarding the birth.
I know most of you will be anxious, and will want to say 'pull yourself together, you gotta do it' etc which I know deep down I do and I just sound like a weakling, but the thought of it is making me feel terrible.
I have been on anti depressants since I was 13 and came off them for this pregnancy and admittedly have struggled. As some of you know, I also have a extreme phobia of vomiting (which I am embarassed about cos alot of people dont understand) but its not just a dislike, its a fear and this is also making me fear the birth as it is common to be sick in labour. Any one with depression/anxiety history will hopefully know where im coming from in the way im feeling.
I felt so awful today, like I was at breaking point so I called the midwife. We had a good chat. However, she feels my raised blood pressure and constant headaches are due to these uncontrollable panic attacks and stress relating to the birth and my phobia and said that this isnt good for baby. She has referred me to see a consultant regarding this on Friday to discuss my birth options.
I have two options, go vaginal or have an elective C Sec like Skatty did anyone remember that? I know some of you are going to be horrified that I might end up having a C Sec for this but if you knew how unwell I have been feeling im hoping some of you would understand. I know its major surgery and there are many pros and cons to both vaginal and C Sec births, and a C Sec by no means is an easy option and im aware of this. Trust me, I wont be taking the decision lightly if im offered a C Sec, which might not even be an option yet, its just what my midwife has suggested.
Im merely going for a chat on Friday with the consultant, just to get his opinion on what he thinks is best for me and baby. This thread is prob alot for you girls to get your heads round, and im nervous in response to your answers, but I didnt want to hide it anymore, I wanted to share the burden.
I do hope you girls understand and can help me with this.
Sorry again for the long post
I feel I have to come on here and let all this out and hopefully you are going to support me..I have been holding this in for a while (obviously my family know) but I think its about time I could chat about it to you guys, my crew!!
Everyone is scared, nervous etc of childbirth. But the past month I have been having panic attacks every day, not being able to leave the house they have got so very bad. Im feeling ill and stressed and so down and all I do is cry regarding the birth.
I know most of you will be anxious, and will want to say 'pull yourself together, you gotta do it' etc which I know deep down I do and I just sound like a weakling, but the thought of it is making me feel terrible.
I have been on anti depressants since I was 13 and came off them for this pregnancy and admittedly have struggled. As some of you know, I also have a extreme phobia of vomiting (which I am embarassed about cos alot of people dont understand) but its not just a dislike, its a fear and this is also making me fear the birth as it is common to be sick in labour. Any one with depression/anxiety history will hopefully know where im coming from in the way im feeling.
I felt so awful today, like I was at breaking point so I called the midwife. We had a good chat. However, she feels my raised blood pressure and constant headaches are due to these uncontrollable panic attacks and stress relating to the birth and my phobia and said that this isnt good for baby. She has referred me to see a consultant regarding this on Friday to discuss my birth options.
I have two options, go vaginal or have an elective C Sec like Skatty did anyone remember that? I know some of you are going to be horrified that I might end up having a C Sec for this but if you knew how unwell I have been feeling im hoping some of you would understand. I know its major surgery and there are many pros and cons to both vaginal and C Sec births, and a C Sec by no means is an easy option and im aware of this. Trust me, I wont be taking the decision lightly if im offered a C Sec, which might not even be an option yet, its just what my midwife has suggested.
Im merely going for a chat on Friday with the consultant, just to get his opinion on what he thinks is best for me and baby. This thread is prob alot for you girls to get your heads round, and im nervous in response to your answers, but I didnt want to hide it anymore, I wanted to share the burden.
I do hope you girls understand and can help me with this.
Sorry again for the long post