This is really just me venting as I have nobody else to speak to. Our friends today have just announced they're having a baby, they're due a week after I should have been. I can't stop crying. Of course I'm happy for them, when I first heard the news I was over joyed, they'd always said they were fine not having children but they love all the children of the friend group so much, but then the date clicked and my stomach dropped. Now I just feel selfish. Every part of her journey should be mine too and I'm going to have to witness it so closely. I'm absolutely broken and we can't even ttc right now, so there's no chance of me getting pregnant and easing the pain slightly. I feel so lost.