sob, tis hard going back to work!!!

[pips]

hi all
hardly ever leave posts anymore and work is the main reason why
well my computer is still broke so that counts- i borrow my flatmates computer sometimes but i hardly ever use it for leisure as i've always research for uni to do...

i'm starting full time this week and i dont like it. i'd already been back to uni but not full time. now zoë goes to the nursery and thats horrid too (i nearly cried the first time): she wouldnt eat at first, then one night started crying like she had collic and then slept ALL night til 9.15 so i guess she was sulking cos i left her . she hasnt done it since

and handling hours at uni, coursework and complete motherhood on my own is not easy!!! i just want to stay at home with my sweetiepie and play with her

i dream of a world where money is of no importance.
i had a job somewhat like dionne's but it payes wonderfully well without being too sleazy: it would be so easy to revert to that but i WONT do it for my daughter's sake

how are you all coping with work? i saw sami started a thread on going back. how has it been since then?
i'm starting to feel pretty damned useless!!!

thank god my baby is a wee lovey and is very patient lol, she's even starting to accept the bottle when we were nothing but breastfeeding and i think its hurting her tummy: well done baby (she said kissing her daughters head )

sorryfor the grumble. i guess i dont dare grumble to people im face to face with
pip xx

 

[Urchin]

Awww pips my hat goes off to you it really does.
You are struggling now but it's all for your daughter's future and I think you deserve a medal.

 

[Vicky]

Aww pip, your very brave. Couldn't you take some more time off to spend more time with your daughter, shouldnt you get 6 months off.

 

[pips]

thanks ladies! i wish i could take more time off but i'm just a poor student hehe

have you started back?

 

[Lucy]

Pips, you are doing such a great job, I can't believe you are back at your studies, I admire your determination and drive. You and your daughter will benefit from your hard work and it will all be worth it.

When does your Uni stop for the summer break?

Looking forward to meeting you and Zoe with Jean and Colby!

Lucy x

 

[Vicky]

No i don't start for another week, i go back to work on the 15 may part time, shouldn't you of got your maternity pay from the goverment???

 

[hels]

Hey hunni.....really good to see a post from you!!!
I too totally admire you!
I go back on the 15th, luckily OH will have Charlie, we are both gonna work PT, ill do 2 days and he'll do 3or 4 days. Dreading it!!
Dont be a stranger!! Take care. xxx

 

[stephlw25]

Hi hunny,
I know how you feel i go back to uni in June and although Jamie is not as young as little Zoe i am still dreading it!!
I cant bear the thought of putting him in a nursery
How im going to fit in...... childcare, uni work (which most of is placements so will be working full time on a ward!) plus loads of essays, and spending time with jamie.....is beyond me!!
I keep telling myself its only for 12 months!! its a good job i get a bursary as i would have no idea how i would cope finianally!!

Anyway, keep smiling hopefully it will get easier
i know its hard, your doing a fantastic job, really admire you!!

Take care hun x

 

[pips]

got 5 mins to leave a quick message
thanks for your replies, i've missed you guys

winstanley- i'm french and britain is not always very generous with us foreigners so i have to get on with it, but hey! thats what life is about innit?!

lucy- i spoke to jean on the phone, we're looking forward to meeting up! unfortunately i can only do weekends now. if you have a time that suits get in touch with me or jean

hels and steph- my week is coming to an end and its had its ups and downs, i'm knackered now and zoë is fast asleep too but i can say although its hard work it reminds you of who you were when you were "that 'selfish' person without child" if you see what i mean. you get time to be with adults and the time spent with baby is really extra special afterwards. steph, and baby going to nursery helps to get big long nights lol, thats the good side

take care you lovely mummies xxx

 

[futuremum]

Hi Pips!!!

I have started work about 5 weeks ago and i find it very difficult!!! I teach french in a secondary school ( i am french too ) and i work full time. what kills me the most is work after work hours, like i have 2 seta of reports fro year 8 to write plus 2 sets for year 7.

I have not one minute for myself, unless i am giving myself a break, which i am doing now. When i do not work i look after thomas. when i do not look after thomas i do the cleaning, basically i have no life anymore and i feel like i am not a person anymore. Funny enough, the only place i feel i have an identity is school.

Thomas goes to creche 3 days a week. i nearly cried the first day but they do not mind being left at that age, when he will be 6 months old it will be a different story. the first day he was drinking his milk but then got much better!!!

I am lucky i am not on my own but it is still very hard work!!! sometimes i do feel on my own ( but that is another issue ) PM me if you need to talk.

Good luck!!!!

 

[K X]

Pips what nursery is Zoe at? Rebecca is starting Careshare- £36.50 per day and no help from the tax credit system x

 

[pips]

futuremum, i have a 'no work at home' policy at the moment. i do all my work during the day when i don't have zoë as in the evening i am so tired and she needs me.. i don't know if i will get through th year but i won't do it any other way.

K X, is that careshare on morrison st?? that is where zoë is
they are lovely there... is she there already? for all we know we have already walked past each other lol. it's so expensive... you must get help from somewhere! let me know

take care xxx