I know this has nothing to with pregnancy but I really need to share...I am balling my eyes out and can't seem to stop. I have 15yr old staffordshire terrier. The last few days she has had terrible diarrhea and I have been getting up to it smeared everywhere as she is walking in it. She is going blind, deaf and often stands in the corner facing the wall for ages at a time..also wanders in circles. Everything she eats is going through her and she is losing weight. I don't get paid until the 12th Jan to take her to vets so I have been trying to to do the best I can for her at home. I have been reading up on when to put your dog to sleep and it is killing me...I love her so much and cannot imagine life without her...I'm in bits. I know it is the right thing to do but I just can't bring myself to kill my dog...that's how I see it....even though I know it's for the best. I've not had good experiences with putting animals to sleep as earlier this year I lost two cats to poisoning and had to have them both put to sleep...it wasn't quick and peaceful....it took way too long and was very stressful for cats. My fear is that the same thing will happen to Honey and her last moments will be of me hurting her....I really can't handle this this... Has anyone had to put their old dog to sleep...how do you cope?