So frustrated!

[Chazabell]

As you know i've already had a wee rant this month, but im so frustrated!!

I clearly OV'd on Tuesday 1st, due to EWCM, cramps and hot flush. And yesterday i felt some twinging low down, same as what i felt last cycle, and it meant nothing!

What the frigging hell can it be? Its not implantation cramping coz thats too soon!

Why is my body so f***ed up?

Its not even like i pain myself each month with POAS! Ive cut out drinking too much caffine, drinking alcohol, keeping healthy, sex every other night (apart from this cycle)

Its almost 2 years since we started trying. 2 years i've wished each month away hoping 1 would end in a BFP! I just know its not gonna happen for us before xmas, which by then they will have taken me off Clomid and put me on a waiting list!

Anyome else feel like tey are fighting a loosing battle with themselves in their head??

I just want it over with

Sorry to be so depressing, had to air on here. I know OH feels the same so i dont wanna put all my worries onto him.....again! xxxx

 

[Kay Kay]

Aww Chaz, I know exactly how you feel chick, I honestly do! We're coming up for the 2 year trying mark as well and I never thought we would be that couple. I suppose no-one does. It's so, so hard

I got my period on Fri after we DTD in his bloody mum & dad's house (!!) when I ovulating on 21st Oct (we were staying there that night). They had popped out for an hour but still, the lengths we'll go to and still nothing!!!!

I'm not sure what the twinges you're getting are but I get similar feelings throughout the month, I think some people are just a lot more aware of their body and esp cos we're ttc you're a lot more tuned in the other ppl. Could it be something to do with your PCOS do you think?

My next hope is the HSG xray that we're waiting for (6 mth waiting list for that WTF?!!) so that should be Jan or Feb. I've read that it can increase your chances of conceiving by flushing out your tubes...so that's given me a small glimmer of hope. Will you be getting that anytime soon?

Don't feel bad for ranting, that is exactly what we're all here for. It's going to happen for us one day Chazza! xxx

 

[maybe baby]

Aww sorry chaz!

I know it's hard but we all need to stop analysing every little twinge etc as it's not worth it!

I remember Miss July saying saying she could feel bubbles popping in her tummy, what did it mean??

Louise b's answer was- "probably the start of a fart!"

My point is there could be a million reasons for any twinge or symptom try not to worry!

Are you on 100mg of clomid yet?

Also Hun have you had cd21 bloods?

Xx

 

[Chazabell]

No they keeping me on 50mg, and no bloods. If AF turns up week on Tuesday, im gonna call ACU and ask for bloods too. My 1st set of bloods were good then AF arrived 4 days early but scan showed all ok.

Suppose the twinges could be my ovaries chilling out after being blown up by Clomid.

Kay Kay you summed it up exactly, you never see yourself as being that couple!

Im not symptom spotting or anything this month, im peed off with it all lol. Its just frustrating!!

Xxxx

 

[blondy13]

Hi Chaz, sorry you're feeling a bit crap about everything today.
I haven't been TTC anywhere near as long as you but still get these days where I think, why me? I know we shouldn't be thinking like that but I also never thought we'd be one of those couples that needed help. I guess no-one does until it happens.
I think you have got to try and think about the fact that if clomid doesn't work this cycle or next, you will be on your way to something like IUI which will give you much better chances of that BFP.
About the weird twinges and pains you've been getting, it could be down to your PCOS? I get weird ovary pains all the time and funny cramps/pulling feelings and know I'm not ovulating. I asked my consultant about them and he said its fairly normal with PCOS and they'll probably only get worse when I start clomid next month. So basically, its the clomid making your ovaries go even crazier than normal!
I think a more chilled 2WW this time will help you, and you never know what you might be surprised with at the end of it!
sending big hugs your way xxx

 

[maybe baby]

The reason I was asking is do you OV already?

Have you ever had a CD21?

xx

 

[Chazabell]

I did ovulate on my own, but irregular. And my LP on some cycles was as short as 7 days when i look back. Clomid has regulated me to a 28 day cycle which is great and i get OV symptoms around CD14.

Had my CD21 bloods twice, but progesterone levels were high on clomid so they scanned for more accurate reading.

Xxxx