Have a consultant appointment at 9am tomorrow and really hope she decides enough is enough. I really cant carry on any more, pain killers arent working anymore despite upping the dose, im also getting sore on my hips and ribs due to the pressure of lying on them all the time despite lying on 4 duvets under the sheet and everytime I have tried to eat anything since yesterday I have been sick afterwards so have given up and am living off small mouthfulls of banana yazoo. I cant even manage to sit downstairs at all anymore. Every day is getting harder to get through and am on the verge of just giving up, I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up again til its all over. I dont know what I will do if they turn round and say tough, you have to carry on til the end.