Quick Catch up :)

[Chazabell]

Hi ladies,

Congratulations on the BFP's I've just seen....Tinks, Vicky, MaybeBaby. Fingers crossed for Gemma and claireabella.

I've been super busy with my new bunnies, they are a handful but super cute. Having a mare at the min as my cycle has started spotting a week early and we haven't had much sex this month at all....as I'm just not in the mood!!!

I'm sorry I'm not around all the time at the min but I hope you guys understand why. After 4 years I do feel slightly defeated, and I know it's not going to happen without the intervention of IVF. I am so chuffed for the BFP's I have just seen but I this is why I stay away too.

I'm jealous and envious as I want it so bad, and some ladies are having their second and some on their 3rd in the time I'm still trying for 1. And....I'm a veteran LTTTC'er. The are new names I don't know who are just embarking upon their journey. I know this is my own fault for nit always being on the forum but I need to protect my sanity sometimes

Would you believe I haven't even done the slightest bit of IVF research on google. I love google. Hundreds of times it's told me I'm pregnant and I diagnosed endo and pcos.

I'll be catching up on posts over the next few days to see how you all are.

Lots of love and xxxxx

 

[Sunbeam638]

Good luck chazzabell with Ivf, such a journey for you, I do check in lttc to see how ladies are doing fx it happens on the first round

Your bunnies sound cute! All the best xxx

 

[MissJuly10]

Chaz you're not alone. I'm happy that people are getting bfps without going through this heartache either again or for the first time but it also breaks my heart that like you say, I'm still here, still talking about the same old LTTTC stuff, still daydreaming about the what ifs and what could be's and it's hard when others are on their second or third and we are still dreaming of and praying for our first. It's easy to feel jealous but I have to put myself aside and be happy for the fact that they aren't feeling the same heartache and they're happy with another bfp , I wouldn't wish this journey on anyone . Not saying you are but that's my own personal perspective.
I don't know when it'll happen, but I have to have faith that it will, otherwise this whole journey through iui and ivf is pointless.
It's been nearly 4 years for us too and every day it gets harder and I have my wobbly moments and wonder why the eff it's not happening lol but we press on because the end result will be so worth it and will make all those horrible feelings of heart ache disappear the minute we cuddle our babies for the first time.

Big hugs hun, I understand how you feel and you're not alone. X

 

[Moley]

Just want to send you lots of love and luck when you start your IVF x

 

[EssJayPea]

I don't log on as much these days but when I do, I always check to see how you and MissJ are doing - I'm rooting for you both xxx

 

[Gabrysia]

Hi Chaz, I'm new'ish on the forum but not so with Lttc , it's 2.5 yr and I still don't know what is wrong with my cycle (is mad, I'm on 63rd today, previous was 17 days), I'm in process of investigating it. I know exactly how you feel, I'm trying to be happy for other girls but there is always that thought in back of my head "don't I deserve it too?" . When my brother in law announced last Xmas that they're expecting I plastered smile on my face but had tears in my eyes, felt like couldn't breathe and had to leave room, God only knows what my in laws think of me now. Will keep my fingers crossed for you!

to you Chaz

 

[Kerrieanne]

Aww bless you chaz

I wish you all the luck in the world with your IVF. I know all too well that after 5yrs ttcing IVF was the best decision I have ever made and it made all my dreams come true. I hope this is the start of an exciting new adventure in your life. Keep us posted xx

 

[Gabrysia]

Hi kerrieanne just wanted to say congrats on your 2 babies - was reading your signature, it's nice to know that it might take a long while but to not to give up, 5 yrs I imagine felt for you massively long but now you're mummy