sweetpamii
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Well basically I had a but of self realisation today that I'm not okay, I've been kidding myself for months that things will get better but I think I've realised it might not and I might need a hand to get back to my old self. My daughter is 5 months old, and I love her so much but 80% of the time I really dislike her almost hate I know it's horrid but I need to be honest. I'm constantly tired and anxious, I'm constantly upset and usually crying, my OH does nothing to me and I still get mad at him. Im a musician
So I play lots of gigs and lately I've been cancelling them, something I never do. I'm so worried that I'm letting everyone down by going to get help and feeling like I'm just over exaggerating but I have my health visitor coming out on Thursday for a chat and she's suggested over the phone that I should go see my gp. But I don't want them to look at me like a bad mum.
I'd never hurt my daughter but I yell a lot especially lately and I'm really struggling.
Is anyone else suffering like this?
I really feel alone.
So I play lots of gigs and lately I've been cancelling them, something I never do. I'm so worried that I'm letting everyone down by going to get help and feeling like I'm just over exaggerating but I have my health visitor coming out on Thursday for a chat and she's suggested over the phone that I should go see my gp. But I don't want them to look at me like a bad mum.
I'd never hurt my daughter but I yell a lot especially lately and I'm really struggling.
Is anyone else suffering like this?
I really feel alone.