sarah1
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Currently going through m/c - had one last year at 6.5wks and one or two early ones. This one was a bit of a surprise pg as had been told by fertility specialist that I wouldn't get pg due to uterine polyp that needs removing and have PCOS. So kind of knew it wouldn't work out.
I am feeling a little upset, but mostly I feel very numb about the whole thing. I felt the same when I found out I was pregnant again. The miscarriage started very quickly on Friday and even when I had the gush of blood I didn't feel any shock.
When I found out I was pg again I had a week or so of very odd thoughts too - I felt like I didn't know if I wanted a baby....I don't know if that was just kind of my way of dealing with the fact I knew I'd lose it. Hubby and I have always said we want children, I think we both are just tired of the TTC thing and have kind of convinced ourselves we won't be having any children, and more shockingly we have both become ok with it. Its such a confusing time. We haven't told any family or friends that we are even ttc, they'd be very shocked if they knew the whole story. I'm toying with the idea of telling them but just not sure - there'll be so much fuss.
I've got a scan appt on Thu - they've told me to come in to see if everything gone ok. I had 2 infections after last one so very worried and will push for D&C if there is anything left.
Also have some issues with fertility specialist appt - long story I have written it in LTTTC section!
So I am currently just feeling....odd. My rant is over I just felt like I needed to post something in this section xxxx
I am feeling a little upset, but mostly I feel very numb about the whole thing. I felt the same when I found out I was pregnant again. The miscarriage started very quickly on Friday and even when I had the gush of blood I didn't feel any shock.
When I found out I was pg again I had a week or so of very odd thoughts too - I felt like I didn't know if I wanted a baby....I don't know if that was just kind of my way of dealing with the fact I knew I'd lose it. Hubby and I have always said we want children, I think we both are just tired of the TTC thing and have kind of convinced ourselves we won't be having any children, and more shockingly we have both become ok with it. Its such a confusing time. We haven't told any family or friends that we are even ttc, they'd be very shocked if they knew the whole story. I'm toying with the idea of telling them but just not sure - there'll be so much fuss.
I've got a scan appt on Thu - they've told me to come in to see if everything gone ok. I had 2 infections after last one so very worried and will push for D&C if there is anything left.
Also have some issues with fertility specialist appt - long story I have written it in LTTTC section!
So I am currently just feeling....odd. My rant is over I just felt like I needed to post something in this section xxxx
it is such a horrible thing to go through twice, I am a bag off emotions too. Sometimes I feel ok about it and just think it wasn't meant to be. Then I feel as though I was never pregnant at all, then it's why me? Why can't I still have my baby!! It is definitely a roller coaster ride having a miscarriage. 
