Thank you for your kind words MrsS15, it's so nice to hear from someone who gets the way I feel. I'm so sorry for your losses, that must have been awful for you, can I ask if you are still trying now? I can't imagine going through this again, but I know I will want to try again at some point, but I'm so scared now. I don't think you should feel at all ashamed,but I get what you mean. It is so painful to see someone having a seemingly effortless pregnancy at work every day. I seem to be noticing babies and pregnant women in the street more than ever and I'm just so jealous of them! And I hate myself for being so resentful if them! Don't think I can take much more time off, had all last week and two days the previous week when the symptoms started and I had an early scan. Just trying to struggle through! Could do with a holiday though! Big hugs to you, I hope you are getting support from your loved ones xox