I`m SO sorry to hear of your loss.
I lost my baby girl at 22 weeks 18 months ago. I found the experience a huge shock, and very frightening. I felt butchered physically, mentally and emotionally. I found it difficult to face the outside world afterwards, and had to work it all out in my mind which took several days. I then began slowly come to terms with what had happened to me and what i had lost. Sometimes it is just too horrific to think about, and i longed for a break from it to give me a rest. I also looked back and wondered had i managed things properly, such as viewing the baby, and funeral arrangements etc. I received fairly good care, and was in contact by phone with the midwife, she didnt visit me because we were staying a long way away from home straight after. I could have had a local midwife pop in but i didnt see the point.
There are several support groups out there, i find that these on line discussion forums are very good, you can have a chat with someone on line and feel less self conscious if it gets upsetting, and cry in peace ( if you know what i mean) If ever you would like to chat with me in the chat room, just message me, and let me know, and i will meet you in there, it would do me good to talk to some one else who has gone through this harrowing experience too.
I am thinking of you whilst you are going through this awful time, and am here for you XXX